loulou
06-11-06, 12:01
hi all,
In the passed ive suffered from depression and anxiety the depression comes and goes the anxiety is there all the time (not when im at home but if i go out)... Ive always been a nervous person and when i was young i felt some of the feelings i get now when im depressed but didnt know what they was at the time. but i got really bad about 8 years go my mum and dad went through a really bad stage and i saw alot that i shouldnt have seen. it got better and i just had my own issues to deal with i was on prozac for about 4 years and had therapy (and im still only 24 lol) i came of the prozac in feb this year and seemed to be getting on ok ive avhieved a lot this year coming of the prozac was one ive quit smoking passed my driving test and completed a 38 mile walk for charity. all seemd ok i still dont go out that much but having been getting better. then a few weeks ago i was talking to my aunt (who im very close to) and she said a few things that played on my mind she said im just existing not living and that i need to move out and stand on my own feet becuse my mum and dad are just going to drag me down (my mum drinks a lot and we argue a lot) and since then ive felt relly down ive not been sleeping and now have that sicky feeling in my chest friday was a bad night i was in bed shaking feel like im going mad. i feel so unhappy with my life dont get me wrong i have a lovely family (not exctly normal but hey ho) i have a good job in the city. but i feel so unhappy im scared im gonna be like this for ever. feel people all think look at her 24 and dont have a life scared im going to be an old spinster. Im scared im always gonna suffer with depression i feel selfish because im healthy so should be greatful but i feel really alone and unloved. I feel like everyone is gettin on with their life and im just staying in the same place. Sorry this is a long and bit of a life story but need to get it of my chest.
Lisa
In the passed ive suffered from depression and anxiety the depression comes and goes the anxiety is there all the time (not when im at home but if i go out)... Ive always been a nervous person and when i was young i felt some of the feelings i get now when im depressed but didnt know what they was at the time. but i got really bad about 8 years go my mum and dad went through a really bad stage and i saw alot that i shouldnt have seen. it got better and i just had my own issues to deal with i was on prozac for about 4 years and had therapy (and im still only 24 lol) i came of the prozac in feb this year and seemed to be getting on ok ive avhieved a lot this year coming of the prozac was one ive quit smoking passed my driving test and completed a 38 mile walk for charity. all seemd ok i still dont go out that much but having been getting better. then a few weeks ago i was talking to my aunt (who im very close to) and she said a few things that played on my mind she said im just existing not living and that i need to move out and stand on my own feet becuse my mum and dad are just going to drag me down (my mum drinks a lot and we argue a lot) and since then ive felt relly down ive not been sleeping and now have that sicky feeling in my chest friday was a bad night i was in bed shaking feel like im going mad. i feel so unhappy with my life dont get me wrong i have a lovely family (not exctly normal but hey ho) i have a good job in the city. but i feel so unhappy im scared im gonna be like this for ever. feel people all think look at her 24 and dont have a life scared im going to be an old spinster. Im scared im always gonna suffer with depression i feel selfish because im healthy so should be greatful but i feel really alone and unloved. I feel like everyone is gettin on with their life and im just staying in the same place. Sorry this is a long and bit of a life story but need to get it of my chest.
Lisa