ady1779
16-11-13, 21:26
I don't really know what I am searching out by posting this...maybe reassurance, maybe just a way of getting it out of my head! I have Health Anxiety OCD. I ruminate excessively for hours and days about my health. Every twitch, twinge, sore muscle, eye twitch, tingle.....is a DVT, stroke, heart attack, blood clot...the list goes on. I have a wonderful CBT therapist, I have made some inroads. But lately I just seem to be sliding back into health compulsions. I am exhausted. My breathing is always off now, has been for 6 weeks or more. Even when I feel happy it still sneaks in there to torment and worry me. I am obsessed that there is something wrong with my heart even though I have never been told or led to believe that there is. I have had chest xrays and two ecgs in the last 2 weeks. Both textbook and completely normal. But then I think maybe the ecg didn't pick up what was wrong because it wasn't happening at the time or the doctor read it wrong because he is not a cardiologist. Right now and all day my breathing has been bothering me. I take deep, sighing breaths all day. My chest and upper back ache now. Do I think that is anxiety? On one level. The other level tells me its life threatening.
I am exhausted by this. I am tired from this. I am over this. I have to make some changes or I will waste what little time I have here that I have been gifted with by God.
I am exhausted by this. I am tired from this. I am over this. I have to make some changes or I will waste what little time I have here that I have been gifted with by God.