LolaBee6
18-11-13, 06:12
So earlier tonight I was over a friends house.
We were talking about school and what we got up to.
I remembered thisnone head teacher everyone hated and I stood up to him.
So I told the story , only to have the response of "yeah I don't think you did though" come from my fiances mouth .
Now one that is just embarrassing . Two he never knew me in school (before I was this ill) and three I feel like utter crap that my own future husband thinks Im lying !!
I have no reason to lie to my friends or anyone .... Why would I ?
I havent told him how its made me feel.
Once again Im letting people walk all over me.
In school I was confident. I got bullied but around my friends Id just say it as it was.
Everyone knew where they stood with me. I wasnt a cow or anything , just wouldnt put up with crap from anyone verbally .
Now its completley different and thats all my fiance knows is this fragile little girl.
I want my old life back so badly.
When this stuff happens I really let it get to me .
Ive been crying for a while now and he doesnt know .
I feel sick that I feel this way about something he said :(
I dont know what to do .
We were talking about school and what we got up to.
I remembered thisnone head teacher everyone hated and I stood up to him.
So I told the story , only to have the response of "yeah I don't think you did though" come from my fiances mouth .
Now one that is just embarrassing . Two he never knew me in school (before I was this ill) and three I feel like utter crap that my own future husband thinks Im lying !!
I have no reason to lie to my friends or anyone .... Why would I ?
I havent told him how its made me feel.
Once again Im letting people walk all over me.
In school I was confident. I got bullied but around my friends Id just say it as it was.
Everyone knew where they stood with me. I wasnt a cow or anything , just wouldnt put up with crap from anyone verbally .
Now its completley different and thats all my fiance knows is this fragile little girl.
I want my old life back so badly.
When this stuff happens I really let it get to me .
Ive been crying for a while now and he doesnt know .
I feel sick that I feel this way about something he said :(
I dont know what to do .