nightcat
19-11-13, 05:35
Hey everyone! I'm a 22 year old male from London who has developed some serious health anxiety over the past three months - not fun :weep:
It all started in September when I randomly one day got a feeling of having a bit of food stuck between the left side of my tongue and the wall of... my mouth lol. The day I felt it I thought I would have a look with a light, and there was a horrid lesion on the arch (from google images I think it's called "palatoglossal arch"?) of skin that's in front of your tonsils when you stick your tongue out. It's quite small and smooth and is attached to a really thin base on the arch, like it's just about hanging on. It also has tiny blood vessels in it when you look closely at it. I guess I would compare it to a skin tag?
I went to the gp a few days after discovering it because it was still there and the horrible feeling wasn't going, it didn't hurt at all though which also worried me a bit more. I saw a nurse on my first visit because I rang in the morning for any appointment ASAP that day and she told me that I had infection in the back of my throat :ohmy: I didn't even have any pain in my throat lol. Anyway, she didn't even really look at the lesion and sent me away with strong antibiotics.
Over the next two weeks I got lower and lower and I just started to break down everyday because I could feel it constantly and I was convincing myself that I had oral cancer because it just wasn't going away :weep: There was no way I could put my tongue comfortably without feeling like something was stuck on the left side of it. So anyway, I went back to my gp and saw a doctor who looked at it and told me he was positive that it was a papilloma :huh::huh: and he is positive it's nothing serious, but he referred me to an oral surgeon. obviously I googled and just made my mind go crazy with what I was reading. So I have an sti that is going to give me cancer :weep: now I realise how silly that sounds, but I've just been so negative because this has not changed (I became obsessed over the next two months with googling "papilloma" and "oral cancer")
I felt a bit better from seeing him , but feeling this papilloma was seriously getting to me and I was breaking down everyday for like the rest of September/most of October. It took forever for a referral letter to come so I went to the dentist and got him to look/also get the letter to hurry. One finally came like a month after seeing the doctor for a consultation on the 26th October. Panic came all over me and I was a mess.
I saw the surgeon and he took a glance at it and in a jolly voice said "nothing to worry about, it's just a wart" and told me it should be straight forward when taking it off. Obviously it's nice to hear an oral surgeon reassure me that it's nothing malignant, but this feeling is seriously making me want to pull my tongue out :weep::lac:
I waited 2 weeks for a letter to come about getting this vile thing cut out, but being impatient/uncomfortable all the time I rang and she told me that I wasn't booked in till the end of January :scared15::scared15: I start Christmas work on the 2nd and the thoughts of having this for the entire time made me want to scream and cry a bit more, so I begged for it to be put forward and she got me booked in for the 23rd of this month (this Saturday) :yesyes:
Now I'm sitting here, happy that this is all finally happening, but I'm being so negative about how it's all going to go down:doh: I'm thinking like "what if even when they take this wart out of my mouth I will still feel something there" and "what if them taking it out makes the feeling even worse" :weep: I'm just so exhausted from being so upset/ uncomfortable constantly from this tiny piece of skin over the past almost three months and I just want my normal mouth back. I'm extremely fed up now with this feeling.
Idk if anyone will even bother reading this lol, but it's nice to find a place where I can share how awful I've been feeling and have others relate. Hoping to share after Saturday that I will be feeling a lot more upbeat.
Hope everyone is well :bighug1:
It all started in September when I randomly one day got a feeling of having a bit of food stuck between the left side of my tongue and the wall of... my mouth lol. The day I felt it I thought I would have a look with a light, and there was a horrid lesion on the arch (from google images I think it's called "palatoglossal arch"?) of skin that's in front of your tonsils when you stick your tongue out. It's quite small and smooth and is attached to a really thin base on the arch, like it's just about hanging on. It also has tiny blood vessels in it when you look closely at it. I guess I would compare it to a skin tag?
I went to the gp a few days after discovering it because it was still there and the horrible feeling wasn't going, it didn't hurt at all though which also worried me a bit more. I saw a nurse on my first visit because I rang in the morning for any appointment ASAP that day and she told me that I had infection in the back of my throat :ohmy: I didn't even have any pain in my throat lol. Anyway, she didn't even really look at the lesion and sent me away with strong antibiotics.
Over the next two weeks I got lower and lower and I just started to break down everyday because I could feel it constantly and I was convincing myself that I had oral cancer because it just wasn't going away :weep: There was no way I could put my tongue comfortably without feeling like something was stuck on the left side of it. So anyway, I went back to my gp and saw a doctor who looked at it and told me he was positive that it was a papilloma :huh::huh: and he is positive it's nothing serious, but he referred me to an oral surgeon. obviously I googled and just made my mind go crazy with what I was reading. So I have an sti that is going to give me cancer :weep: now I realise how silly that sounds, but I've just been so negative because this has not changed (I became obsessed over the next two months with googling "papilloma" and "oral cancer")
I felt a bit better from seeing him , but feeling this papilloma was seriously getting to me and I was breaking down everyday for like the rest of September/most of October. It took forever for a referral letter to come so I went to the dentist and got him to look/also get the letter to hurry. One finally came like a month after seeing the doctor for a consultation on the 26th October. Panic came all over me and I was a mess.
I saw the surgeon and he took a glance at it and in a jolly voice said "nothing to worry about, it's just a wart" and told me it should be straight forward when taking it off. Obviously it's nice to hear an oral surgeon reassure me that it's nothing malignant, but this feeling is seriously making me want to pull my tongue out :weep::lac:
I waited 2 weeks for a letter to come about getting this vile thing cut out, but being impatient/uncomfortable all the time I rang and she told me that I wasn't booked in till the end of January :scared15::scared15: I start Christmas work on the 2nd and the thoughts of having this for the entire time made me want to scream and cry a bit more, so I begged for it to be put forward and she got me booked in for the 23rd of this month (this Saturday) :yesyes:
Now I'm sitting here, happy that this is all finally happening, but I'm being so negative about how it's all going to go down:doh: I'm thinking like "what if even when they take this wart out of my mouth I will still feel something there" and "what if them taking it out makes the feeling even worse" :weep: I'm just so exhausted from being so upset/ uncomfortable constantly from this tiny piece of skin over the past almost three months and I just want my normal mouth back. I'm extremely fed up now with this feeling.
Idk if anyone will even bother reading this lol, but it's nice to find a place where I can share how awful I've been feeling and have others relate. Hoping to share after Saturday that I will be feeling a lot more upbeat.
Hope everyone is well :bighug1: