HyPoCon
24-11-13, 06:43
So my story so far,
My mother died 3 years ago of bowel cancer which had seemingly disappeared, she also had stomach cancer 16 years before.
I know this is obviously the cause for my anxiety as every heath fear I have
is based around the big C of some kind, My health anxiety started about 6
months after she passed, it began with my thoughts wondering toward stomach cancer as I had some re-occurring pains there, at this time it was not bad, it was only a background thought and never really effected me.
A while passed and twinges came and went, each time considering the possibility that it was something more.
The first serious run in I had with health anxiety was the start of this year,
having been a big drinker, pot and cigarette smoker, and hard to admit but I also craved a crack pipe on occasion, after a music festival and having consumed all of the previously mentioned habits, A lump in my throat drew my attention along with a reasonable amount of pain. This was where I had my first appointment with Dr Google, I spent every spare hour searching for the worst of the worst conditions that my symptoms could be.
This is the worst thing I have ever done, It ruined my relationship, as I plunged into a deep depression thinking that the end was just around the corner, It cost me a bundle having doctors appointments left, right and center. I went to the doctors every couple of days, forced him to send me for Ultrasounds, when he would not refer me to an ENT I went to another doctor, he not only referred me but put me on a dose of anti depressants, and Valium (AD were terrible but the Valium helped when I got so worked up about my imminent death)
I was diagnosed with Globus Hystericus, which is a lump in the throat caused by anxiety, this was not good enough for me and I kept searching.
After A scan of my throat I was told I had a cyst on my thyroid, OH SHIT! That's it, it has to be cancer i thought the whole way through the dr's calm down heaps of people have them speech.
The pain in my throat turned out to be reflux, and the lump in my throat has gone................BUT...HEALTH ANXIETY NEVER RESTS!!!!!!
I have since been under the impression that I have had Bowel, stomach, testicular and colon cancer, I have been for blood tests, and to specialists and even a couple of Ultrasounds, all returned fine!
I recently found out that the growth on my thyroid has not grown.
My current self diagnoses is either Sinus Cancer or a Brain tumor, as I have had blurry vision, painful eyes and ears and a stuffy/blocked nose for 6 months, I have a CT scan of both sinus and brain tomorrow at 9am, I know that I have health anxiety, but I also doubt that it is purely HA and always have the what if? thought.
Hypochondria is a terrible thing, you can know that you have it, but it makes no difference in quenching the worry that you have some kind of serious, life threatening disease, every spare moment spent wondering if you will make it to the end of the year, at least that is how i feel.
If you have found this site while searching your symptoms on Google(As I did) then you have come to the right place,
I guess this is a long winded way of saying that I am ready to try to put HA behind me, and asking for help and advice to do so.
What is the best way to get over it?!
If you have managed to get all the way through this essay I have just written, then I thank you for your time
-HyPoCon
My mother died 3 years ago of bowel cancer which had seemingly disappeared, she also had stomach cancer 16 years before.
I know this is obviously the cause for my anxiety as every heath fear I have
is based around the big C of some kind, My health anxiety started about 6
months after she passed, it began with my thoughts wondering toward stomach cancer as I had some re-occurring pains there, at this time it was not bad, it was only a background thought and never really effected me.
A while passed and twinges came and went, each time considering the possibility that it was something more.
The first serious run in I had with health anxiety was the start of this year,
having been a big drinker, pot and cigarette smoker, and hard to admit but I also craved a crack pipe on occasion, after a music festival and having consumed all of the previously mentioned habits, A lump in my throat drew my attention along with a reasonable amount of pain. This was where I had my first appointment with Dr Google, I spent every spare hour searching for the worst of the worst conditions that my symptoms could be.
This is the worst thing I have ever done, It ruined my relationship, as I plunged into a deep depression thinking that the end was just around the corner, It cost me a bundle having doctors appointments left, right and center. I went to the doctors every couple of days, forced him to send me for Ultrasounds, when he would not refer me to an ENT I went to another doctor, he not only referred me but put me on a dose of anti depressants, and Valium (AD were terrible but the Valium helped when I got so worked up about my imminent death)
I was diagnosed with Globus Hystericus, which is a lump in the throat caused by anxiety, this was not good enough for me and I kept searching.
After A scan of my throat I was told I had a cyst on my thyroid, OH SHIT! That's it, it has to be cancer i thought the whole way through the dr's calm down heaps of people have them speech.
The pain in my throat turned out to be reflux, and the lump in my throat has gone................BUT...HEALTH ANXIETY NEVER RESTS!!!!!!
I have since been under the impression that I have had Bowel, stomach, testicular and colon cancer, I have been for blood tests, and to specialists and even a couple of Ultrasounds, all returned fine!
I recently found out that the growth on my thyroid has not grown.
My current self diagnoses is either Sinus Cancer or a Brain tumor, as I have had blurry vision, painful eyes and ears and a stuffy/blocked nose for 6 months, I have a CT scan of both sinus and brain tomorrow at 9am, I know that I have health anxiety, but I also doubt that it is purely HA and always have the what if? thought.
Hypochondria is a terrible thing, you can know that you have it, but it makes no difference in quenching the worry that you have some kind of serious, life threatening disease, every spare moment spent wondering if you will make it to the end of the year, at least that is how i feel.
If you have found this site while searching your symptoms on Google(As I did) then you have come to the right place,
I guess this is a long winded way of saying that I am ready to try to put HA behind me, and asking for help and advice to do so.
What is the best way to get over it?!
If you have managed to get all the way through this essay I have just written, then I thank you for your time
-HyPoCon