illgetthere
25-11-13, 23:56
Hi all I had some horrible news on Friday regarding my nana she's 93 and hasn't got long left as she has a clot but because if her age they can't amputate there leaving it to kill her so it's all I have thought about well today I was talking to my mom about my grandad he died 26 years ago from lung cancer I found myself asking the ins and outs even thou I knew it was going to spark my anxiety so I've put things aside and decided to tell myself I'll deal with it later well on tbe way to see my cousins new baby I was talking with my other half about next year and things I want to do I.e decorate get my car fixed and save but then tbe voice slipped in and boom I thought why am I planning I don't ever plan because I think if I plan something will happen to me for planning then I started seeing all the visions 😭😭 I can't stop thinking something bad is going to happen it makes me so sad why don't it stop 😭😭 I just wasn't something to look forward to and be happy x
Love and best wishes Vicky xx
Love and best wishes Vicky xx