So scared I am about to have a relapse

[Catherine84]

I feel like I have been cursed with bad luck the last few months. I have been struggling to get a grip with my sensorimotor OCD around my breathing the last couple of weeks and my body feels like it is swarming with adrenaline. Then, last weekend I found out my partner and I are going to be thrown out of our home in a couple of months' time as the landlady (who currently lives next door) wants to move into it.

I am still off work and they are hounding me more and more. I am supposed to be organising a psychologist referral with BUPA through work, but in the mean time, they want me to see a specialist in London. I haven't been out alone much at all since being signed off, and the thought of a train/underground journey alone terrifies me. My partner can't accompany me, as he has no holiday left to take a day off (and they don't allow unpaid leave), and my parents won't, as 'it's his responsibility'.

I feel like I really don't want to live with this constant awareness of my breath for the rest of my life, and each relapse is worse than the last.

I guess I just wanted some reassurance that these anxious feelings will pass, as I feel things are so bleak right now.

Catherine x

[hheavenlyangel]

Am so sorry you're feeling so bad right now. You have a ton of things going on around you at the moment. Step back for a moment and close your eyes, take a deep breath and know, it really is only anxiety. Everything will be taken care of, it will all fall into place and everything will be fine. Perhaps just ask your Mum or sister if they can go into the city with you. I don't think its your partner's responsibility either unless he has some guardianship over you. :/ its going to be fine, just relax. It really will be ok.

[cls1033]

it hard to believe that these sensations are brought on by our own mind. we are more sensitive to our thoughts and how we feel. you need to find a way to relax and learn some breathing exercises . you will find that you have more control over this then it does you. you will get past this as soon as you learn that it is just a sensation and not your health.