Catherine84
26-11-13, 11:23
I feel like I have been cursed with bad luck the last few months. I have been struggling to get a grip with my sensorimotor OCD around my breathing the last couple of weeks and my body feels like it is swarming with adrenaline. Then, last weekend I found out my partner and I are going to be thrown out of our home in a couple of months' time as the landlady (who currently lives next door) wants to move into it.
I am still off work and they are hounding me more and more. I am supposed to be organising a psychologist referral with BUPA through work, but in the mean time, they want me to see a specialist in London. I haven't been out alone much at all since being signed off, and the thought of a train/underground journey alone terrifies me. My partner can't accompany me, as he has no holiday left to take a day off (and they don't allow unpaid leave), and my parents won't, as 'it's his responsibility'.
I feel like I really don't want to live with this constant awareness of my breath for the rest of my life, and each relapse is worse than the last.
I guess I just wanted some reassurance that these anxious feelings will pass, as I feel things are so bleak right now.
Catherine x
I am still off work and they are hounding me more and more. I am supposed to be organising a psychologist referral with BUPA through work, but in the mean time, they want me to see a specialist in London. I haven't been out alone much at all since being signed off, and the thought of a train/underground journey alone terrifies me. My partner can't accompany me, as he has no holiday left to take a day off (and they don't allow unpaid leave), and my parents won't, as 'it's his responsibility'.
I feel like I really don't want to live with this constant awareness of my breath for the rest of my life, and each relapse is worse than the last.
I guess I just wanted some reassurance that these anxious feelings will pass, as I feel things are so bleak right now.
Catherine x