sambomonkee
28-11-13, 10:48
I have been on a new medication for the last two weeks, Lofepramine, and last Thursday I started to feel really good, on Monday I saw my CPN and was high as kite saying I all better now everything is great, Tuesday was pretty much the same, but Wednesday I started to see a decline, and last night I spent an hour running through a suicide scenario before pulling my self out of those thoughts.
I really don't want to phone him, but feel I should, I just feel like this crash is my fault and that I'm letting everybody down who has put the time and effort into me. Its almost like I feel shame for crashing like this after biging it all up when I met on Monday. I just hope what I experienced wasn't just a short lived manic session.
Should I phone or should I leave it until my next meeting?
I really don't want to phone him, but feel I should, I just feel like this crash is my fault and that I'm letting everybody down who has put the time and effort into me. Its almost like I feel shame for crashing like this after biging it all up when I met on Monday. I just hope what I experienced wasn't just a short lived manic session.
Should I phone or should I leave it until my next meeting?