Lousy Hero
09-11-06, 19:10
Hey, Im Richard, im Seventeen... well 18 on the 21st of November... some 18th it's going to be...
A teacher, and good friend, of mine at school has been a long time reader, though never a poster, of these forums and suggested them to me as a source of ... i dont know, support? well at least to show to me that im not alone in my feelings and there are communities such as these that really do help. its great to see, from what ive read so far, how supportive you guys are and how much you all care about the "little guy."
Ive recently been discharged from a young persons psychiatic unit, where i stayed for three weeks. I was admitted, not sectioned, because of continual self harming and suicidal thoughts and attempts. I think it helped and, though my stay was short, i was able to begin to talk about problems in my life, something which ive never felt able to do in the past. Much of my therapy was based around the CBT, or Cognitive Behavioural Therapy, which, i found, was a GREAT way of addressing thoughts, feeling and emotions.
I am currently attending my school for two hours a day in the mornings in an attempt to overcome some of my fears. I started this on Tuesday 7th Novemeber, and have found it really difficult but i know its a step i need to take. I've also got to decide what to do education wise, whether to:
A) Complete my final year of 6th form, take my final exams in May 2007 and continue to university in October 2007,
B) Carry on attending school, but repeat my final year properly in September 2007,
C) Leave school and return in September 2007 to repeat my final year, and find some form of low stress employment until then.
I really have no idea what to do at to moment it just seems to be too "in your face" for me to cope with at the moment. I guess, deep down, i would like to either attempt re-intergration into my current year (as no to socially excude myself) and repeat my final year next year, or get a job until next september then repeat my final year. I dont think i could cope with the pressure, ongoing therapy, emotional stress and catching up necessary to carry on at school as "normal" and take my exams in may 2007.
Anyway, thats me, apologies for the length of my intro, its just helped to write things down i guess, and hopefully y'all know a bit about me and my situation :)
Thanks for taking the time to read
Lousy Hero
Religion? Communism? No, Love is the Opiate of the People
A teacher, and good friend, of mine at school has been a long time reader, though never a poster, of these forums and suggested them to me as a source of ... i dont know, support? well at least to show to me that im not alone in my feelings and there are communities such as these that really do help. its great to see, from what ive read so far, how supportive you guys are and how much you all care about the "little guy."
Ive recently been discharged from a young persons psychiatic unit, where i stayed for three weeks. I was admitted, not sectioned, because of continual self harming and suicidal thoughts and attempts. I think it helped and, though my stay was short, i was able to begin to talk about problems in my life, something which ive never felt able to do in the past. Much of my therapy was based around the CBT, or Cognitive Behavioural Therapy, which, i found, was a GREAT way of addressing thoughts, feeling and emotions.
I am currently attending my school for two hours a day in the mornings in an attempt to overcome some of my fears. I started this on Tuesday 7th Novemeber, and have found it really difficult but i know its a step i need to take. I've also got to decide what to do education wise, whether to:
A) Complete my final year of 6th form, take my final exams in May 2007 and continue to university in October 2007,
B) Carry on attending school, but repeat my final year properly in September 2007,
C) Leave school and return in September 2007 to repeat my final year, and find some form of low stress employment until then.
I really have no idea what to do at to moment it just seems to be too "in your face" for me to cope with at the moment. I guess, deep down, i would like to either attempt re-intergration into my current year (as no to socially excude myself) and repeat my final year next year, or get a job until next september then repeat my final year. I dont think i could cope with the pressure, ongoing therapy, emotional stress and catching up necessary to carry on at school as "normal" and take my exams in may 2007.
Anyway, thats me, apologies for the length of my intro, its just helped to write things down i guess, and hopefully y'all know a bit about me and my situation :)
Thanks for taking the time to read
Lousy Hero
Religion? Communism? No, Love is the Opiate of the People