Pigeon
07-12-13, 16:03
Here I am again worrying about my health. I have two things going on at he moment - heart worries and some kind of cancer in the pelvic area - possibly bladder or womb. I won't go into details of symptoms here as some of them are a bit personal.
My GP is sending me for an ECG and I saw a gynaecologist this week and have to go for a scan.
I know that even if the results of both come back positive, I will still worry. If one kind of cancer is ruled out, I will think it's another. I have already made a mental list of the possible types based on my symptoms.
Every time, I convince myself that this is it. This time it's different. I refuse to allow myself to think that I am thinking this way because I am anxious (two people in my family have been diagnosed with cancer this year), I have lots of family responsibilities and a stressful job) .
I am stressed about Xmas as I have lots to do, no time to do it and 13 people coming for Xmas lunch.
Really fed up of myself at the moment.
My GP is sending me for an ECG and I saw a gynaecologist this week and have to go for a scan.
I know that even if the results of both come back positive, I will still worry. If one kind of cancer is ruled out, I will think it's another. I have already made a mental list of the possible types based on my symptoms.
Every time, I convince myself that this is it. This time it's different. I refuse to allow myself to think that I am thinking this way because I am anxious (two people in my family have been diagnosed with cancer this year), I have lots of family responsibilities and a stressful job) .
I am stressed about Xmas as I have lots to do, no time to do it and 13 people coming for Xmas lunch.
Really fed up of myself at the moment.