ben esgate
07-12-13, 23:59
Depersonalization
Hi there. I have had anxiety problems for as long as I remember. Recently though, depersonalization has been so bad for me that I am too afraid to sleep. I cant identify who I truly am any more. It happens in stages. As I am drifting off to sleep I lose identity of myself and it gets worse and worse over the course of a couple of minutes until I completely cant feel in touch with who I am? I know my name is Ben and where I am physically but I am scared of my own body and voice because I have no real feeling or sense of reality.
Recently I have been waking up again with a fright after about an hour of falling asleep (when I eventually can) and jumping out of bed screaming as I cant work out who I am or were I am. Its got so bad I have hurt myself and bruised myself on things in my house. I cant cope with it any more. I am exhausted and have thoughts of suicide to end it all. I am scared of death and being conscious of my own breathing scares me as I think I am going to stop breathing. I am stressed all the time with my jaw clenching all the time and my shoulders are tense.
I feel adrenaline running through my body at the most inconvenient of times. I have been put on beta blockers to help with this and also take escitalopram but feel worse these days.
I have joined this site for some support.
Hi there. I have had anxiety problems for as long as I remember. Recently though, depersonalization has been so bad for me that I am too afraid to sleep. I cant identify who I truly am any more. It happens in stages. As I am drifting off to sleep I lose identity of myself and it gets worse and worse over the course of a couple of minutes until I completely cant feel in touch with who I am? I know my name is Ben and where I am physically but I am scared of my own body and voice because I have no real feeling or sense of reality.
Recently I have been waking up again with a fright after about an hour of falling asleep (when I eventually can) and jumping out of bed screaming as I cant work out who I am or were I am. Its got so bad I have hurt myself and bruised myself on things in my house. I cant cope with it any more. I am exhausted and have thoughts of suicide to end it all. I am scared of death and being conscious of my own breathing scares me as I think I am going to stop breathing. I am stressed all the time with my jaw clenching all the time and my shoulders are tense.
I feel adrenaline running through my body at the most inconvenient of times. I have been put on beta blockers to help with this and also take escitalopram but feel worse these days.
I have joined this site for some support.