jimbobrooney
09-12-13, 08:49
Hi everyone
I have been going through a tough time over the past 4-6 weeks. All came to a head when i was convinced i had stage 4 melanoma as a doctor said a mole on my back was "different" to the rest. I went on google overdrive and almost had a breakdown
Anyway, went to dermatologist who said it was fine :-) . You would think that would make me better !
But no, because when i was in my worst stage of cancer panic, i thought that my lymph nodes were swollen (even though i had no evidence of this, except i thought they felt odd). Then i prodded / felt and played with my under arms etc for the past week or so and now my underarm is actually sore :-)
Im exhausted tired and run down because while going through the mole scare, i didnt eat or sleep.
Im constantly checking my underarms and am very "aware" of them now. My ears are kind of sore ( i think) and my worry is increasing again
So basically my fear is that the dermatologist mis diagnosed the mole and i have advanced cancer in my lymph nodes. Writing this actually makes me reliase how crazy it sounds and a good nights sleep would probably help a lot :-)
Im not going back to doctor as these underam issues only arose when i started to think about it
Im at work for first day in a week and falling asleep at the desk - i was sure the depression would have lifted by now but i think i am sliding again!
Can anyone give some advice ? Im sure if my under arm lymph nodes were really swollen then i would feel a lump or i would feel sick etc
I have been going through a tough time over the past 4-6 weeks. All came to a head when i was convinced i had stage 4 melanoma as a doctor said a mole on my back was "different" to the rest. I went on google overdrive and almost had a breakdown
Anyway, went to dermatologist who said it was fine :-) . You would think that would make me better !
But no, because when i was in my worst stage of cancer panic, i thought that my lymph nodes were swollen (even though i had no evidence of this, except i thought they felt odd). Then i prodded / felt and played with my under arms etc for the past week or so and now my underarm is actually sore :-)
Im exhausted tired and run down because while going through the mole scare, i didnt eat or sleep.
Im constantly checking my underarms and am very "aware" of them now. My ears are kind of sore ( i think) and my worry is increasing again
So basically my fear is that the dermatologist mis diagnosed the mole and i have advanced cancer in my lymph nodes. Writing this actually makes me reliase how crazy it sounds and a good nights sleep would probably help a lot :-)
Im not going back to doctor as these underam issues only arose when i started to think about it
Im at work for first day in a week and falling asleep at the desk - i was sure the depression would have lifted by now but i think i am sliding again!
Can anyone give some advice ? Im sure if my under arm lymph nodes were really swollen then i would feel a lump or i would feel sick etc