TooMuchToLiveFor
10-12-13, 20:48
Hi, Everybody!
I joined today after spending the last four weeks combing every post I could as I have been clawing my way through my newly diagnosed panic disorder.
I started recently with two weeks of 50mg Sertraline, then a week of 75, and today I am on day 5 of 100. I am also on a RX of Xanax due to starting with crippling anxiety and then adding the ever dreaded start up anxiety (which might be even worse!) and more panic attacks (and now agoraphobia). I am taking .5 about 4xs a day.
I have a great life- wonderful husband, the most amazing four year old little boy- and a beautiful 4 month old baby girl. I feel like such a burden on them. The mommy/wife guilt is devastating. My husband is having to take care of everything as I doing all I can to function right now. I had to quit nursing my baby girl- which broke my heart.
I think I have struggled with underlying anxiety issues for a long time, but found ways to cope (including abusing alcohol at times). I had what we now know was my first panic episode a year ago in November, but October 6 this year I had the true storm hit--- panic attacks, into panic disorder,.....and here I am.
Starting therapy, including CBT, next week, and adding a psych doc to work with my regular doctor.
Hoping this forum and chat room will be one more tool I can use on my way to wholeness again. This is all very hard for my family and friends to understand. I am (was?) a very bubbly, outgoing, involved, passionate woman- and now I feel like I am a shell of someone I don't even know.....I keep trying to find myself in my own brain.
Looking forward to helping each other......TC
I joined today after spending the last four weeks combing every post I could as I have been clawing my way through my newly diagnosed panic disorder.
I started recently with two weeks of 50mg Sertraline, then a week of 75, and today I am on day 5 of 100. I am also on a RX of Xanax due to starting with crippling anxiety and then adding the ever dreaded start up anxiety (which might be even worse!) and more panic attacks (and now agoraphobia). I am taking .5 about 4xs a day.
I have a great life- wonderful husband, the most amazing four year old little boy- and a beautiful 4 month old baby girl. I feel like such a burden on them. The mommy/wife guilt is devastating. My husband is having to take care of everything as I doing all I can to function right now. I had to quit nursing my baby girl- which broke my heart.
I think I have struggled with underlying anxiety issues for a long time, but found ways to cope (including abusing alcohol at times). I had what we now know was my first panic episode a year ago in November, but October 6 this year I had the true storm hit--- panic attacks, into panic disorder,.....and here I am.
Starting therapy, including CBT, next week, and adding a psych doc to work with my regular doctor.
Hoping this forum and chat room will be one more tool I can use on my way to wholeness again. This is all very hard for my family and friends to understand. I am (was?) a very bubbly, outgoing, involved, passionate woman- and now I feel like I am a shell of someone I don't even know.....I keep trying to find myself in my own brain.
Looking forward to helping each other......TC