jollywalrus
15-07-04, 10:43
When I look back at how I was when I first started reading the forum, I see how much I have improved. Things that were then totally out of my reach some months ago, are becoming nearer.
So what has changed? Well, I seem to have accepted that I suffer from panic disorder. Before, when I had a panic attack it would destroy me for the rest of the day. Now I seem to accept it for what it is, and I move on quickly.
Because of my agoraphobia, I used to scuttle quickly from a to b, my mind full of fear. Now I seem to look at the trees, hear people talking to me and my heart doesn't beat like it used to.
And for those of you who know my fear of shops, well this week I managed two shops alone and paid at the checkout. Yes, I was nervous, but I'm always that aren't I?
Meg, told me to take small steps and that is what I have done. I kept going out, I kept standing in queues and I kept panicking, (i still do) and those little steps have turned into bigger ones.
I don't feel I can put this post in success stories yet, because I have a long way to go, but when I read the forums I remember how awful it can be at it's worst, and I hope my post might help others. It does get better, slowly.
Love to all,
Christine
So what has changed? Well, I seem to have accepted that I suffer from panic disorder. Before, when I had a panic attack it would destroy me for the rest of the day. Now I seem to accept it for what it is, and I move on quickly.
Because of my agoraphobia, I used to scuttle quickly from a to b, my mind full of fear. Now I seem to look at the trees, hear people talking to me and my heart doesn't beat like it used to.
And for those of you who know my fear of shops, well this week I managed two shops alone and paid at the checkout. Yes, I was nervous, but I'm always that aren't I?
Meg, told me to take small steps and that is what I have done. I kept going out, I kept standing in queues and I kept panicking, (i still do) and those little steps have turned into bigger ones.
I don't feel I can put this post in success stories yet, because I have a long way to go, but when I read the forums I remember how awful it can be at it's worst, and I hope my post might help others. It does get better, slowly.
Love to all,
Christine