Tanner40
16-12-13, 12:18
Good Morning to everyone. I had a wonderful weekend, filled with Christmas shopping. No anxiety as I prepared for the excursion very well. The ideas that many people on here gave me really helped make the experience enjoyable.
It's amazing how our minds work when we begin to recover. I had the oddest thing happen to me twice yesterday. Sitting peacefully, reading a book, and I got a strong vibration in my left ear. Almost a vibrating, thrumming type of noise. Like a very large moth beating it's wings in my ear. I could immediately feel the fight or flight syndrome kick in: increased heart rate, warmth spreading to my chest and face, hands shaking, and I jumped out of my chair like I was about to take off on a run.
I immediately calmed myself down and did what I used to do best. I googled. Tinnitus came up, along with tumors and carotid atery issues. For a minute all I saw was the sinister issues.
A month or two ago, I would have been on google for hours, working myself up into a state. Instead, I shut down my computer and wrote. I totally forgot about the issue and went back to reading my book. I forgot all about it until it happened again at bedtime. Lasted 10 seconds and I said heck with it and went to sleep. This wouldn't have been possible two months ago.
I still don't know what it was but I'm thankful for my recovery allowing me to put myself in charge of my reactions. Progress is a good thing!
It's amazing how our minds work when we begin to recover. I had the oddest thing happen to me twice yesterday. Sitting peacefully, reading a book, and I got a strong vibration in my left ear. Almost a vibrating, thrumming type of noise. Like a very large moth beating it's wings in my ear. I could immediately feel the fight or flight syndrome kick in: increased heart rate, warmth spreading to my chest and face, hands shaking, and I jumped out of my chair like I was about to take off on a run.
I immediately calmed myself down and did what I used to do best. I googled. Tinnitus came up, along with tumors and carotid atery issues. For a minute all I saw was the sinister issues.
A month or two ago, I would have been on google for hours, working myself up into a state. Instead, I shut down my computer and wrote. I totally forgot about the issue and went back to reading my book. I forgot all about it until it happened again at bedtime. Lasted 10 seconds and I said heck with it and went to sleep. This wouldn't have been possible two months ago.
I still don't know what it was but I'm thankful for my recovery allowing me to put myself in charge of my reactions. Progress is a good thing!