Tanner40
18-12-13, 12:05
Well, I had a bit of a temper tantrum yesterday. Sometimes I wonder if my family was raised by wolves and I was adopted. :). My four year old niece was in her first Christmas play yesterday and I found out via a FaceBook post. My brother and my sister-in-law never thought to tell me or our other brother. I would have loved to have seen it, as I am very close to my niece.
Two months ago I would have sat on my feeling and silently smoldered. Then, those smoldering feelings would have turned into paranoid thoughts and created a massive panic attack, along with a poor me party. Instead, I wrote about my feelings of anger, hurt and disappointment, and let myself feel them. I turned my irrational thoughts into rational ones. I didn't immediately call my brother and let him have it. And best of all, I didn't go to that anxious place that I used to hide in.
It's amazing what happens when we allow ourselves to truly feel our feelings, instead of burying them, and letting anxiety take over. Sometimes I think that I am more accustomed to dealing with anxiety than handling true emotions.
Celebrating yesterday as a victory!
Two months ago I would have sat on my feeling and silently smoldered. Then, those smoldering feelings would have turned into paranoid thoughts and created a massive panic attack, along with a poor me party. Instead, I wrote about my feelings of anger, hurt and disappointment, and let myself feel them. I turned my irrational thoughts into rational ones. I didn't immediately call my brother and let him have it. And best of all, I didn't go to that anxious place that I used to hide in.
It's amazing what happens when we allow ourselves to truly feel our feelings, instead of burying them, and letting anxiety take over. Sometimes I think that I am more accustomed to dealing with anxiety than handling true emotions.
Celebrating yesterday as a victory!