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23-12-13, 11:45
hey guys.
feeling pretty down right now.
I had an emergency op on my back on friday and its pretty painful, the nurse has to come over to dress it as its has to be packed etc. so have to wait in to see her and as some may know I suffer badly from relationship anxiety and am still finding this v difficult.
Not only that but find christmas is a really crappy time for me, I went through a messy breakup with my ex around christmas years ago now and was v painful(I broke up with him) but actually getting to that point was hard and made me feel awful and that feeling comes back to me at this time of year,which does not help my relationship anxieties!
I used to chritsmas it but find it very hard to keep the christmas cheer up when you dont feel it, feel like theres so much to do and got no time, works usually a good distraction but told not to work cos of my back.
Also got really anxious cos my partners children were being naughty yesteday and then one of them was really bad, had full on tantrums and nothing would work to make her behave. She isnt v well atm which didnt help and did apologise in the end but just really stressed me out...I know kids can be hard work and that, just feels like everything a bit crappy atm at supposedly the 'best time of year.'
feeling pretty down right now.
I had an emergency op on my back on friday and its pretty painful, the nurse has to come over to dress it as its has to be packed etc. so have to wait in to see her and as some may know I suffer badly from relationship anxiety and am still finding this v difficult.
Not only that but find christmas is a really crappy time for me, I went through a messy breakup with my ex around christmas years ago now and was v painful(I broke up with him) but actually getting to that point was hard and made me feel awful and that feeling comes back to me at this time of year,which does not help my relationship anxieties!
I used to chritsmas it but find it very hard to keep the christmas cheer up when you dont feel it, feel like theres so much to do and got no time, works usually a good distraction but told not to work cos of my back.
Also got really anxious cos my partners children were being naughty yesteday and then one of them was really bad, had full on tantrums and nothing would work to make her behave. She isnt v well atm which didnt help and did apologise in the end but just really stressed me out...I know kids can be hard work and that, just feels like everything a bit crappy atm at supposedly the 'best time of year.'