:( I hate this [Archive]

Loubelle87

23-12-13, 13:52

I've had enough of this panic and anxiety. I couldn't make it round Sainsburys without getting bad chest pains, nausea and feeling like I'm going to pass out and die at any point. I couldn't even look around without feeling like I was in some sort of dream world and I'm going to lose control.

I've got chest pains now and feel sick. All I want to do is stay in bed and sleep so that this doesn't happen. :(

Annie0904

23-12-13, 18:42

I think Supermarkets are one of the biggest nightmares for anxiety sufferers and this is not a good time of year for exposure therapy. I am fine with them now but it took time for me to be able to do this and many times running out in tears. Try to build up gradually and go when it is quiet and just for a couple of item.

missacorah

23-12-13, 18:51

Oh Loubelle, the amount of times Ive felt like this, I really have. Im going through it at the moment all over again after being free from it for over 5 years :(

If I was in a queue and started feeling a bit giddy I used to visualise myself standing at home (maybe washing up or ironing) and think 'well if I was at home standing still like this I wouldn't be feeling faint so why should I now?' Sometimes...just sometimes...it helped a little.Sometimes no effect whatsoever as we all know lol.

Don't beat yourself up over it.Have another go next time and keep going till you get where you want to be x

Mr Mannering

23-12-13, 21:00

I'm still not a big fan of shopping in supermarkets. I remember once that I was walking down a quite isle with my 13 year old daughter when suddenly as if I was on some kind of drug the isle I was in seemed to stretch really wide.. I let go of the trolley and said "were going" I was out of there like shot. I really kicked myself because I try very hard not to let my kids see that I have this especially at that age. I'm not ashamed at all but wouldn't want them being scared or worried. Please make sure you go again and again and again until you can at least face it... Like I said I don't think i will ever really be fond of it :)

missacorah

23-12-13, 21:43

And then you get those people who are happy to spend hours in there, standing in the middles of aisles etc without a thought they could be in the way/people might like to pass by - sometimes I feel a little envious of people like that who seemingly don't have a care or a forethought in the world!

laurenlozxx

23-12-13, 22:43

Sounds just like me i start off ok then i worry more and more round the shop like im going to faint. i get a wave of dizzy ness and my head feels like a washer with thoughts im getting better by forcing myself to stay there. the funny thing is ive never fainted its horrible xx

Loubelle87

23-12-13, 23:47

I have to go back to Sainsburys tomorrow mornin. I'm getting up early at about 7:30 to get it over and done with. I tend to find my anxiety and panic is much better first thing in the morning. Does anyone else have that?

I tend to be OK until I get a chest pain or a bit dizzy and then I instantly think that I could die that second and it makes it worse and I just want to run home where I feel 'safe' or at least safe enough that an ambulance can get to me quickly. It's so irrational but the physical symptoms feel so real that for that moment I am convinced I'm going to die. I rarely have a full blown panic attack but I do start to panic!

missacorah

23-12-13, 23:49

I don't really worry about dying as such while im in there, my worst fear is that I will faint while going round and look silly in front of other people.

Anyway youre going nice and early so wont be too busy for you hopefully. You can tackle it when you've enjoyed Christmas x

mandie

24-12-13, 00:04

Hi Loubelle

I feel exactly like this in supermarkets and shopping centres. I get very lite headed and don't feel real. The more I go to the back of the shop, the more light headed and unreal I feel. It scares me everytime. but I wont leave the shop, I normally move towards the front until I calm down abit and then I carry on.

I use to leave my basket down and walk out, but I was worried doing that all the time and I would never be able to conquer my fear.

I also feel the same in the fact the physical symptoms are so bad I think im going to die.

Good luck for tomorrow, your going nice and early so you should be fine

mandie x

missacorah

24-12-13, 00:34

Im the same the further back I go in a shop mandie - isn't it horrible how our minds can do this?

Daisy Sue

24-12-13, 01:32

Hi Loubelle.. I know this might sound odd, but is there a different supermarket you could go to tomorrow? When my panic attacks were really bad I couldn't go to Tesco or M&S but I was ok in the Co-op and the Spa ones.. I think it was a subconscious memory trigger for me - I'd had panic attacks in the first two in the past, and those memories were enough to bring them on again each time I went there.

This is probably against what most professionals would tell you - it's avoiding techniques - but my opinion is if something works then I'll do it, and changing where I shopped worked for me.

mandie

24-12-13, 09:09

Im the same the further back I go in a shop mandie - isn't it horrible how our minds can do this?

Missacorah, I start off fine, then when I realise im at the back of the shop I start to panic.

I just want to go into a shop and relax and look around but I find it so hard

mandie x

Loubelle87

24-12-13, 11:01

I managed to get to sainsburys this morning but I was in and out in 15 minutes. I felt better than yesterday but I was waiting for the panic to kick in!

I've kept myself busy with housework most of this morning and I've felt OK other than the odd chest twinge

missacorah

24-12-13, 11:07

I went for a blood test this morning so felt worse than usual anyway (im a big baby when it comes to them). I made a point of going to a small Farmfoods on the way home just to pick up a few last minute bits and so I could feel good about it. Like you Loubelle I was there no more than 15/20 minutes but we did it didn't we? x

Tanner40

24-12-13, 12:07

Great job on making it to the shop this morning and conquering your fear for today. One step every day can lead to recovery. Congratulations and well done!

cymraig_chris

30-12-13, 22:54