Sarahjosephine
27-12-13, 02:39
Hi everyone,
Im 25 and have suffered from HA since I was 15. So a few months ago I noticed a dark eye floater in my right eye at night and I was feeling really anxious about it but kind of just ignored it the days afterwards then something awful happened and I lost my boyfriend suddenly. My life felt frozen and the pain of losing him was too much to bare it's not been about 2 months since he passed and my HA has come back tenfold. I noticed the eye floater again and became obsessed with it, then I noticed a dark speck in my iris when I looked in the mirror around the part the eye floater is so I started freaking out even more. This anxious has overwhelmed me...now when I'm out side I see heaps of floaters, some clear, some dark fuzzy balls, some lines wih dark bits on them and it's become so debilitating that as soon as I wake I feel sickly anxious and don't want to get up to see the day or go outside at all. Christmas has been etremely hard for me as all I've felt is like I'm going mad and I told my mum and she said she will take me to the optometrist but I'm so scared to go and find out something horrible: I feel like this has been such a hard year and that's it's like bad luck or somehong so if I go I'm going to get told bad news. I also usually wear glasses and I have astigmatism but haven't had my glasses for about a year due to them breaking. I just want to know how many other people suffer from this?? I looked up giggle and read some really scary things that has made me freak out so much. How do I deal with this anxiety? My friend said don't worry about it until you get it checked but that just made me think that it has to be something bad then. My mum said she has eye floaters and so does my dad but it's still not reassuring me and they kind of are like cob webs are I read that's bad too. I don't want to do anything but sit in a dark room and cry and losin my boyfriend who always reassured me is making this so hard to deal with as well. I just want my life back.
Im 25 and have suffered from HA since I was 15. So a few months ago I noticed a dark eye floater in my right eye at night and I was feeling really anxious about it but kind of just ignored it the days afterwards then something awful happened and I lost my boyfriend suddenly. My life felt frozen and the pain of losing him was too much to bare it's not been about 2 months since he passed and my HA has come back tenfold. I noticed the eye floater again and became obsessed with it, then I noticed a dark speck in my iris when I looked in the mirror around the part the eye floater is so I started freaking out even more. This anxious has overwhelmed me...now when I'm out side I see heaps of floaters, some clear, some dark fuzzy balls, some lines wih dark bits on them and it's become so debilitating that as soon as I wake I feel sickly anxious and don't want to get up to see the day or go outside at all. Christmas has been etremely hard for me as all I've felt is like I'm going mad and I told my mum and she said she will take me to the optometrist but I'm so scared to go and find out something horrible: I feel like this has been such a hard year and that's it's like bad luck or somehong so if I go I'm going to get told bad news. I also usually wear glasses and I have astigmatism but haven't had my glasses for about a year due to them breaking. I just want to know how many other people suffer from this?? I looked up giggle and read some really scary things that has made me freak out so much. How do I deal with this anxiety? My friend said don't worry about it until you get it checked but that just made me think that it has to be something bad then. My mum said she has eye floaters and so does my dad but it's still not reassuring me and they kind of are like cob webs are I read that's bad too. I don't want to do anything but sit in a dark room and cry and losin my boyfriend who always reassured me is making this so hard to deal with as well. I just want my life back.