Inverkeithing
27-12-13, 10:31
Hi, apologies if in wrong area here.
I have been on Citalopram on and off for seven years after losing my best friend very young and in tragic circumstances. I wasn't strong enough to cope.
Seven weeks ago I came off them again as thought I was ready. I wasn't. In these seven weeks I have pushed my wife and 4 kids away (they move out tomorrow) and started on Mirtazapine. I took them for 4 days but felt awful. So numb, so on a different planet. Almost worse than depression in many ways. Plus I was so irritable that I stopped taking on Xmas day as I ruined what will probably be our last "normal" Xmas day together.
Not taken anything last few days but have enough of Citalopram and Mirtazapine left that I could start taking either of them at my normal dosage. Need to take one or the other as I feel so exposed without either of them that I can't stop feeling teary and suicidal. At same time I don't want to feel as spaced as I was on Mirtazapine as it's not real and sick of being artificially happy/content.
Not really asking for advice as such, just hoping as I had read so many helpful comments on other threads that this might be 1) helpful to vent (I have trouble sharing feelings) and 2) that someone may have had a similar medication dilemma.
Thanks x
I have been on Citalopram on and off for seven years after losing my best friend very young and in tragic circumstances. I wasn't strong enough to cope.
Seven weeks ago I came off them again as thought I was ready. I wasn't. In these seven weeks I have pushed my wife and 4 kids away (they move out tomorrow) and started on Mirtazapine. I took them for 4 days but felt awful. So numb, so on a different planet. Almost worse than depression in many ways. Plus I was so irritable that I stopped taking on Xmas day as I ruined what will probably be our last "normal" Xmas day together.
Not taken anything last few days but have enough of Citalopram and Mirtazapine left that I could start taking either of them at my normal dosage. Need to take one or the other as I feel so exposed without either of them that I can't stop feeling teary and suicidal. At same time I don't want to feel as spaced as I was on Mirtazapine as it's not real and sick of being artificially happy/content.
Not really asking for advice as such, just hoping as I had read so many helpful comments on other threads that this might be 1) helpful to vent (I have trouble sharing feelings) and 2) that someone may have had a similar medication dilemma.
Thanks x