anxious
14-11-06, 09:08
Hi, i went for a CBT assessment last week (should start middle of next year) and they gave me some leaflets to read.
I found one part very interesting - turn the spotlight off your body. I think you will all agree we are far too aware of our body and any changes. I am constantly obsessing and checking for marks, spots, lumps & monitoring aches and pains. Many a time i will say to myself, would a 'normal' person be doing this? I mean please tell me i am not the only one who has contorted themselves into some wierd position armed with mirror and torch to check some bump/mole out? I mean is that 'normal' behaviour? I know that they tell us to be aware of changes, but sometimes what i do is totally over the top.
Does anyone else get themselves into such a state that they don't actually know what they are looking/feeling at? I end up in a state of panic not knowing if i have really found anything or if its in my mind!
I also don't seem to be able "to give things time". If i find a spot say, i worry about it immediately. If i could set myself a time limit - say two
weeks- the thing would have probably gone by then.
I've asked 'normal' friends if they would think to check for stuff like i do and i get some very strange looks. They are sure if there was a problem, they would notice it - so why go looking.
I'm waffling now, but the leaflet made me aware of how obsessed i am with looking at my body.
I really need to turn that spotlight off.
anx xx
Laughter is a tranquilizer with no side effects
I found one part very interesting - turn the spotlight off your body. I think you will all agree we are far too aware of our body and any changes. I am constantly obsessing and checking for marks, spots, lumps & monitoring aches and pains. Many a time i will say to myself, would a 'normal' person be doing this? I mean please tell me i am not the only one who has contorted themselves into some wierd position armed with mirror and torch to check some bump/mole out? I mean is that 'normal' behaviour? I know that they tell us to be aware of changes, but sometimes what i do is totally over the top.
Does anyone else get themselves into such a state that they don't actually know what they are looking/feeling at? I end up in a state of panic not knowing if i have really found anything or if its in my mind!
I also don't seem to be able "to give things time". If i find a spot say, i worry about it immediately. If i could set myself a time limit - say two
weeks- the thing would have probably gone by then.
I've asked 'normal' friends if they would think to check for stuff like i do and i get some very strange looks. They are sure if there was a problem, they would notice it - so why go looking.
I'm waffling now, but the leaflet made me aware of how obsessed i am with looking at my body.
I really need to turn that spotlight off.
anx xx
Laughter is a tranquilizer with no side effects