hangingbasket
02-01-14, 20:27
So this evening I feel pretty crappy. My throat feels funny and I am very aware of my swallowing. I feel like I have a temperature (I dont own a thermometer so idk), my ribs ache, my head hurts and my anxiety levels are very high. I feel warm and tired and generally unwell.
Now...... it's my own fault!!
I woke up this morning and was aware of waking up in the night sweating. So..... I googled night sweats. How stupid?? I've been doing so well with not googling. It's been ages since I've done it and dont know what came over me. So this began to raise my anxiety levels. Then after being up for an hour or so... I got on the scales and weighed myself. Another thing I've not done for a while. This used to provoke my anxiety so I stopped it.
By tonight, I'll admit... I even did a pretty detailed poop check!! I'm so disappointed how I've given into these things today. Why do we do it?
And sure enough... now I feel awful and I'm feeling like there is something wrong with me. I'm tempted to look into possible reasons why I might be feeling warm or possible causes of a high temperature. I'm not going to do this. I'm not going to make myself feel any worse.
It just goes to show that these things we do/dont do to make ourselves feel better are things that need to be stuck to. No days off and no slip ups. I feel very disappointed in myself, and very anxious. Tomorrow is another day and I'm determined to feel better.
Now...... it's my own fault!!
I woke up this morning and was aware of waking up in the night sweating. So..... I googled night sweats. How stupid?? I've been doing so well with not googling. It's been ages since I've done it and dont know what came over me. So this began to raise my anxiety levels. Then after being up for an hour or so... I got on the scales and weighed myself. Another thing I've not done for a while. This used to provoke my anxiety so I stopped it.
By tonight, I'll admit... I even did a pretty detailed poop check!! I'm so disappointed how I've given into these things today. Why do we do it?
And sure enough... now I feel awful and I'm feeling like there is something wrong with me. I'm tempted to look into possible reasons why I might be feeling warm or possible causes of a high temperature. I'm not going to do this. I'm not going to make myself feel any worse.
It just goes to show that these things we do/dont do to make ourselves feel better are things that need to be stuck to. No days off and no slip ups. I feel very disappointed in myself, and very anxious. Tomorrow is another day and I'm determined to feel better.