KLP
03-01-14, 13:20
Hi this is my first post on here. I'd like to start and say that my symptoms have been over 3 months (I know it's not long compared to others but I have come to understand that this might be anxiety). My time timeline of events has concluded that this is highly likely to be anxiety. It all began on 25th Oct 2013, I thought I'd had breast cancer, one was very itchy and different colour nipple to the other. Having had two friends, one who sadly passed of breast cancer @ 40 and the other close friend who's late 40 with terminal breast cancer. My fears took over, it took me 3 days to pluck up the courage to go to the doctors (in between googling the symptoms), that morning cried my eyes out because I was SO scared to go. I went and asked to have a mammagram but as I don't have breast cancer in the family nor have a lump, she looked and said I was fine. But my fears where still very much elevated.
Within that week all my symptoms arose:
Blurred vision (constant, no let up) thorough eye exam, will fine.
Diarrhea (constant to date)
Pins and needles in fingers and toes (not so much now, more numbness in hands whee I wake)
Twitches, occasionally
Dizziness (this happened twice, like I'd had too much to drink and room spinning).
Tender abdominal area (mainly at the top LHS)
Nauseas after a visit to toilet.
Very weak at the height of my anxiety.
When I relax bath/bed, it feels like an army of ants are walking throughout my arms, hands and head.
Pulsing behind eyes when shut, this it is irritating!
A visit back to the doc confirmed "gastrointeritis, viral...... It pass".
Two weeks later no different, return to docs she said the same thing.
Week later returned this time I fainted in the docs, very weak, dehydrated. And now in desperation to find out what the hell is wrong with me. 24hrs in hospital bloods came back as low white blood count consultant said viral, sent me home.
At this point I thoughts, I'm going private and pay for a mammagram. That week I paid for mammagram, more thorough bloods including thyroid were done, ultrasound of bust and abdomine. And a low colon investigation.
ALL fine apart from low white blood count, again consultant said viral. But advised if diarrhea persistents would need colonoscopy & onoloscopy.
Left it a few weeks returned to docs, still unwell. She did a diabetes test (fine) and a cortisol test (fine). She advised CBT therapy and anti depressant (haven't taken tablets).
Now I am paying for a ct scan which should be next week at some point.
I have gone from having:
Breast cancer
Brain tumor
Pancreatic cancer (friend passed just before Xmas aged 50, funeral was yesterday)
Ovarian cancer
MS
And may more.
Now if you'd asked me 4 months ago that anxiety could cause this I would have been poopoo'd it, saying people say the word stressed to often. But I have eaten my words. It's debilitating. I am a professional singer who is confident and assured about myself, but this has knocked me sideways.
Am I going mad or is this truly an anxiety I'm going through. I just want to be back to my old self. Healthy vibrant mum.
(Ps doc thinks I'm also anxious about my son who was diagnosed with severe haemophilia a year ago, so does the haemophilia consultant)
I'm off to CBT therapy on Wed.
Peace x:whistles:
Within that week all my symptoms arose:
Blurred vision (constant, no let up) thorough eye exam, will fine.
Diarrhea (constant to date)
Pins and needles in fingers and toes (not so much now, more numbness in hands whee I wake)
Twitches, occasionally
Dizziness (this happened twice, like I'd had too much to drink and room spinning).
Tender abdominal area (mainly at the top LHS)
Nauseas after a visit to toilet.
Very weak at the height of my anxiety.
When I relax bath/bed, it feels like an army of ants are walking throughout my arms, hands and head.
Pulsing behind eyes when shut, this it is irritating!
A visit back to the doc confirmed "gastrointeritis, viral...... It pass".
Two weeks later no different, return to docs she said the same thing.
Week later returned this time I fainted in the docs, very weak, dehydrated. And now in desperation to find out what the hell is wrong with me. 24hrs in hospital bloods came back as low white blood count consultant said viral, sent me home.
At this point I thoughts, I'm going private and pay for a mammagram. That week I paid for mammagram, more thorough bloods including thyroid were done, ultrasound of bust and abdomine. And a low colon investigation.
ALL fine apart from low white blood count, again consultant said viral. But advised if diarrhea persistents would need colonoscopy & onoloscopy.
Left it a few weeks returned to docs, still unwell. She did a diabetes test (fine) and a cortisol test (fine). She advised CBT therapy and anti depressant (haven't taken tablets).
Now I am paying for a ct scan which should be next week at some point.
I have gone from having:
Breast cancer
Brain tumor
Pancreatic cancer (friend passed just before Xmas aged 50, funeral was yesterday)
Ovarian cancer
MS
And may more.
Now if you'd asked me 4 months ago that anxiety could cause this I would have been poopoo'd it, saying people say the word stressed to often. But I have eaten my words. It's debilitating. I am a professional singer who is confident and assured about myself, but this has knocked me sideways.
Am I going mad or is this truly an anxiety I'm going through. I just want to be back to my old self. Healthy vibrant mum.
(Ps doc thinks I'm also anxious about my son who was diagnosed with severe haemophilia a year ago, so does the haemophilia consultant)
I'm off to CBT therapy on Wed.
Peace x:whistles: