agateophobia-fear of insanity

[virgostar]

Hey i'm new to this site and reading through the older stories have helped so much. I would just like peoples insight on what i go through. I started having panic attacks starting in college. Just the normal "oh i'm dizzy scared i'm going to faint, i'm hot and trembling, thinking i'm going crazy" kinda thing and it would only last like 2 min. Then after that i was so scared i would get a panic attack while driving, in class again, etc. Well I knew i could control it and it was in my mind so I got over it. I had other problems after i saw the exorcist i was scared about getting possessed, then i researched it and saw how unreal it could be and got over that. Now I read in the news about a mom who killed her children and suddenly i thought "o my God, thats horrible, could I ever do that? If she went insane and did that, i could" then i started imagining me doing it to my loved ones and i was so scared and thought i was going to make myself go nuts and hurt someone or something. I kept telling myself that i am looking way into it and if i was insane i wouldn't think i was. Then i was better and today i watched oprah about a man killing his kids. He said after 11 years he just snapped. That got me going all over again and i started feeling panicky and worried that i would go crazy and hurt someone or something. I really know I won't but the panic is so scary it makes me feel scared that i would. Whats ur insight? I know i have this problem , i would just like it to go away so i woulnd't worry all the freakin time.

[honeybee3939]

Hi Virgo,

Try and tell your self that these are only thoughts and thoughts cant hurt you, here are some posts that may help:

Thoughts
Lets try to keep our thoughts in perspective (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=283)
Mind Games (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=1789)
obsessive thoughts & anxiety (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=3096)
Still suffering this damn "suggestive" thing.. (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=4288)
How to CURE yourself ! The definitive guide here.. (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5357)
Its happening again ! (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=6094)
Things to consider for success! (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=6165)
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Thoughts (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=7187)
image projection in my mind (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=7358)

Scary thoughts
obsessional negative thoughts (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=3343)
what if I kill someone? (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=1972)
Horrible thoughts (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5280)
Morbid thoughts (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5482)
just needing some reassurance i'm not alone (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=6532)
Feeling lonely (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=6820)
What's happening to me? (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=7446)

negative thoughts – dealing with
Dealing with negative thoughts (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=7821)

Love

Andrea
xxx

[snicker_n_snark]

I know how you're feeling virgo, I have Agateophobia too.
It's just....so damn tough sometimes.
I'm trying to help myself, so there is not much I can tell you.
Only that, the panic eventually ends. You will NEVER get stuck in your insanity. And if you THINK about going insane, you probably never will.
Good luck love, you're gonna need it.