fran43
15-11-06, 15:19
I dont know why but the depersonalisation (unreal) feelings have gone. I enrolled on a stress class on a Monday and joined a similar type project that is held Tuesday to Friday.
I can now go into supermarkets and shops, crowds without this unreal feeling which makes a while load of difference.
Cant figure out why (or where) the unreal feeling went but I dont think I am particularly keen to go looking for a reason for fear of it coming back.
It is going to be a hard day on 19 Nov. It will be a year since my dad died. The pain hasn't got easier. I appreciate it will be difficult for my mum but if she keeps on slamming the phone down on me than I need to make a choice. If she wants to talk fine but if she wants to accuse me (and my sisters) of not doing things and then slam the phone down then that is her choice but not one I have to respond to.
I have said perhaps she needs to find a womens' group or interests that will get her out of the house. It is a six bedroom place and I would feel lonely and empty but unlesss she is prepared to lower her pride and do something positive for herself than I just cant help.
The main project during the week gives me a free counsellor once a week for four months and my goal is that is if progress continues this way that I will return to work in January. My work is stressful and with risk and so I need to be sure that it will not create too much pressure.
Cant say I am a lover of Christmas but my daughter's baby is due 22 Dec so things may be chaotic (especially as I am her birthing party and am sure she is going to call me a lot of names during labour which she doesn't mean). Perhaps they will give me a tank of gas and air to get through it:D
I asked my GP to take me off hydroxazine and beta bloker. They were not helping and it seems pointless to take something that has no effect, so my cocktail of meds is going down to.
This post doesn't mean I am cured (far from it) but the progress I have made this week has mainly been positive and it is nice to share with you all my feelings.
Take care of yourself.
Love Fran XX:D
I can now go into supermarkets and shops, crowds without this unreal feeling which makes a while load of difference.
Cant figure out why (or where) the unreal feeling went but I dont think I am particularly keen to go looking for a reason for fear of it coming back.
It is going to be a hard day on 19 Nov. It will be a year since my dad died. The pain hasn't got easier. I appreciate it will be difficult for my mum but if she keeps on slamming the phone down on me than I need to make a choice. If she wants to talk fine but if she wants to accuse me (and my sisters) of not doing things and then slam the phone down then that is her choice but not one I have to respond to.
I have said perhaps she needs to find a womens' group or interests that will get her out of the house. It is a six bedroom place and I would feel lonely and empty but unlesss she is prepared to lower her pride and do something positive for herself than I just cant help.
The main project during the week gives me a free counsellor once a week for four months and my goal is that is if progress continues this way that I will return to work in January. My work is stressful and with risk and so I need to be sure that it will not create too much pressure.
Cant say I am a lover of Christmas but my daughter's baby is due 22 Dec so things may be chaotic (especially as I am her birthing party and am sure she is going to call me a lot of names during labour which she doesn't mean). Perhaps they will give me a tank of gas and air to get through it:D
I asked my GP to take me off hydroxazine and beta bloker. They were not helping and it seems pointless to take something that has no effect, so my cocktail of meds is going down to.
This post doesn't mean I am cured (far from it) but the progress I have made this week has mainly been positive and it is nice to share with you all my feelings.
Take care of yourself.
Love Fran XX:D