happyone
15-11-06, 20:38
Hi
I know this will sound rambling and I might have already posted something similar but my brain is mincemeat just now.
I am having 1-1 CBT. I have had 4 sessions but I don't know what I am getting out of them as I am fearing everything so much.
I fear the issues raised so far will be left to race around my head with no way of coping with them.
I fear that the sessions will come to an end before I have found the way forward as I don't know how long they are to last. I can't ask as one of my fears is to seem needy.
I fear 'failing' so when I can't manage my 'homework', I worry about what she thinks, I worry about her thiking I am wasting her time.
I always leave and am depressed for a couple of days and when I told her that, she said nothing so I don't know if it is normal or not.
My thoughts are so complex and varied that I seem to bring up another fear and anxiety every time I am there. This week it is my fear of hurting my children but next week that might seem insignificant compared to another fear. But if we concentrate on one area, will my other fears be addressed or will I have to address them myself without help?
I am so confused as I have so many fears and anxieties, getting to the root of them is the problem. I almost wish I had said I wouldn't start this CBT but I so want it to work or help. I feel worse now than when I started treatment for anxiety depression.
I even took meds to help me do it and (unsurprisingly!) one of my major fears is taking medication.
I have read many previous posts on CBT but they don't seem to apply to me just now (I am a tad pre-occupied with myself at the mo!)
So, what is it I am asking? Is there a general format of CBT? Does anyone relate to what I am saying? Does anyone have any reassurance for me? If it doesn't work am I up the creek without a paddle?
My head feels so full to bursting I just want to run away to somewhere quiet and no one knows me.
Maybe I should have posted this on another forum, but it is so hard to know which one.
Sorry for rambling.
Happyone:(
I know this will sound rambling and I might have already posted something similar but my brain is mincemeat just now.
I am having 1-1 CBT. I have had 4 sessions but I don't know what I am getting out of them as I am fearing everything so much.
I fear the issues raised so far will be left to race around my head with no way of coping with them.
I fear that the sessions will come to an end before I have found the way forward as I don't know how long they are to last. I can't ask as one of my fears is to seem needy.
I fear 'failing' so when I can't manage my 'homework', I worry about what she thinks, I worry about her thiking I am wasting her time.
I always leave and am depressed for a couple of days and when I told her that, she said nothing so I don't know if it is normal or not.
My thoughts are so complex and varied that I seem to bring up another fear and anxiety every time I am there. This week it is my fear of hurting my children but next week that might seem insignificant compared to another fear. But if we concentrate on one area, will my other fears be addressed or will I have to address them myself without help?
I am so confused as I have so many fears and anxieties, getting to the root of them is the problem. I almost wish I had said I wouldn't start this CBT but I so want it to work or help. I feel worse now than when I started treatment for anxiety depression.
I even took meds to help me do it and (unsurprisingly!) one of my major fears is taking medication.
I have read many previous posts on CBT but they don't seem to apply to me just now (I am a tad pre-occupied with myself at the mo!)
So, what is it I am asking? Is there a general format of CBT? Does anyone relate to what I am saying? Does anyone have any reassurance for me? If it doesn't work am I up the creek without a paddle?
My head feels so full to bursting I just want to run away to somewhere quiet and no one knows me.
Maybe I should have posted this on another forum, but it is so hard to know which one.
Sorry for rambling.
Happyone:(