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11-01-14, 21:21
Hello!
I'm not sure what I'm doing, but if it works even a little bit for anxiety-relief, I guess it's worth it.
It might sound odd, but I'm actually a quite self-confident person who's always been envied for her self-esteem. The problem is, I'm so socially isolated, it's beginning to get to me. I've always been a loner, I suppose, but I never really minded because I was always either the smart kid at school always keeping her mind busy or, later in life, utterly consumed with exhausting but interesting and rewarding work.
I changed my job a little over a year ago and for various reasons have been more or less stuck in a dreadful, mind-numbing boredom that serves only to reveal to me the emptiness around.
A lot, well... most of it is down to the fact that I live in a country that's just a bad match for me and where I've been guilty of retreating into my shell and not learning the language. I accept that as my responsibility, but frankly, I'd rather have a whine for now and plot my way out and call it a day.
Phew. It's already starting to feel good to type all this out.
Thanks for listening.
I'm not sure what I'm doing, but if it works even a little bit for anxiety-relief, I guess it's worth it.
It might sound odd, but I'm actually a quite self-confident person who's always been envied for her self-esteem. The problem is, I'm so socially isolated, it's beginning to get to me. I've always been a loner, I suppose, but I never really minded because I was always either the smart kid at school always keeping her mind busy or, later in life, utterly consumed with exhausting but interesting and rewarding work.
I changed my job a little over a year ago and for various reasons have been more or less stuck in a dreadful, mind-numbing boredom that serves only to reveal to me the emptiness around.
A lot, well... most of it is down to the fact that I live in a country that's just a bad match for me and where I've been guilty of retreating into my shell and not learning the language. I accept that as my responsibility, but frankly, I'd rather have a whine for now and plot my way out and call it a day.
Phew. It's already starting to feel good to type all this out.
Thanks for listening.