Jacsta
12-01-14, 06:29
Hi all
I don't post all that often in the forum (I mainly chill out in chat for a good distraction), but I've been thinking a way and thought I'd type it out to make some sense of it.
I am a long time sufferer of depression and anxiety and in the most part I'm recovered and able to live my life. Unfortunately as you all know so well we are never fully recovered, blips happen, and moons go up and down.
I recently started my new career as a newly qualified nurse....a goal I worked long and hard for, my best life achievement so far. I guess I'm still finding my feet with doing long shifts and having a bigger responsibility. I give it my all at work and unfortunately that has taken a toll on home life. I've become tired, and I just can't be bothered to do anything on my days off. I thought I was just being lazy (maybe I am?) but part of it is down to my depression and anxiety....I spend so much time worrying over everything and trying to be better that by the time a day off comes I'm mentally exhausted so I just spend the day on the sofa, thinking about what I should be doing.
I need a kick up the bum, and I need to learn to switch off from work so that I can enjoy the rewards from full time work pay cheque. I'm on holiday for a week now, and I'm a bit lost as to what to do, I've forgotten how to have fun. I think today (seen as I've been up since 4.30am) I need to think back to my cbt therapy, and remember how to challenge my own doubts, and get back on track.
So this evening I shall look back on today, and I shall post 3 positives of what I have achieved...I shall dig deep and somehow find some energy to carry on.
I don't post all that often in the forum (I mainly chill out in chat for a good distraction), but I've been thinking a way and thought I'd type it out to make some sense of it.
I am a long time sufferer of depression and anxiety and in the most part I'm recovered and able to live my life. Unfortunately as you all know so well we are never fully recovered, blips happen, and moons go up and down.
I recently started my new career as a newly qualified nurse....a goal I worked long and hard for, my best life achievement so far. I guess I'm still finding my feet with doing long shifts and having a bigger responsibility. I give it my all at work and unfortunately that has taken a toll on home life. I've become tired, and I just can't be bothered to do anything on my days off. I thought I was just being lazy (maybe I am?) but part of it is down to my depression and anxiety....I spend so much time worrying over everything and trying to be better that by the time a day off comes I'm mentally exhausted so I just spend the day on the sofa, thinking about what I should be doing.
I need a kick up the bum, and I need to learn to switch off from work so that I can enjoy the rewards from full time work pay cheque. I'm on holiday for a week now, and I'm a bit lost as to what to do, I've forgotten how to have fun. I think today (seen as I've been up since 4.30am) I need to think back to my cbt therapy, and remember how to challenge my own doubts, and get back on track.
So this evening I shall look back on today, and I shall post 3 positives of what I have achieved...I shall dig deep and somehow find some energy to carry on.