PhuzzBuzz
14-01-14, 19:20
There is a song I used to like, "Back To Good" by Matchbox 20. I'm searching for a way back to good. I just want to be normal. Why can't things be normal? I have no idea what normal is. I try. I struggle. I hope. I cry. I need to let things off my chest. The dark lens of anxiety/depression/OCD taints everything. How do I see myself? I am an addict, mostly gambling, put myself $20,000 in debt because of it. I feel like I am a broken person, a screw up, a mistake. Even though I logically know it's not possible I feel like everything is my fault. I feel like I've let down my family. I feel alone. I'm tired. Want so badly to be back to good, what do I need to do to be back to good?