Markfromnj
14-01-14, 22:46
My name is mark and I'm 30 years old with a wife and daughter. Have been suffering from panic/anxiety/depression ect. Since I was 18. I take klonapin and Prozac but I still suffer a lot. I've managed to keep a low paying job at a high school helping autistic teens for 4 years buts my anxiety is getting so bad it might be my last year. I'm afraid my wife will leave me and I won't see my daughter because I'm spiraling out of control. I'm not at all suicidal but I'd be relieved if I suddenly died (which paradoxically is my greatest fear). I always think I'm dying and I feel bitter toward life because it feels like I can't enjoy anything but instead constantly suffer from my own mind. My self esteem is non existent as a result.