beauty
17-01-14, 10:33
I wondered if anyone else is like me and thinks one of the causes of your panic is being too strong during difficult times?
I've amazed people in the past with how strong/brave I've been during difficult situations. An example is in 2012 a close elderly family member was very ill and we had been warned they may only have weeks left to live. I went to see them (they were in bed at home) before heading for work and found them dead. Thinking back it was frightening. I was very close to this person. But at the time I didnt even cry, instead I went and calmly informed my family who were elsewhere in the house and spent the day arranging the funeral and declaring the death. I never did get upset, I was sad but not upset as such. I was even worried the rest of my family might think I didn't care about the death. I'm like this with everything including work, I never let anything get to me and actually pride myself on this most of the time and feel it has got me far in my career.
BUT I find the stress builds up inside without me even knowing it and it will suddenly come out in the form of panic phases (which I'm going through right now). I feel if I was a generally weaker person on a day to day basis and let my emotions come out at the time of stress this wouldn't even happen. I actually see being a strong person as a curse in many respects.
I don't know what I wanted to get out of this post, I was just curious if anyone else is similar to me?
I've amazed people in the past with how strong/brave I've been during difficult situations. An example is in 2012 a close elderly family member was very ill and we had been warned they may only have weeks left to live. I went to see them (they were in bed at home) before heading for work and found them dead. Thinking back it was frightening. I was very close to this person. But at the time I didnt even cry, instead I went and calmly informed my family who were elsewhere in the house and spent the day arranging the funeral and declaring the death. I never did get upset, I was sad but not upset as such. I was even worried the rest of my family might think I didn't care about the death. I'm like this with everything including work, I never let anything get to me and actually pride myself on this most of the time and feel it has got me far in my career.
BUT I find the stress builds up inside without me even knowing it and it will suddenly come out in the form of panic phases (which I'm going through right now). I feel if I was a generally weaker person on a day to day basis and let my emotions come out at the time of stress this wouldn't even happen. I actually see being a strong person as a curse in many respects.
I don't know what I wanted to get out of this post, I was just curious if anyone else is similar to me?