freckles.o
18-01-14, 23:48
Hi,
Just wanted to introduce myself, I've just joined and have never used forum/chatroom before ao am quite nervous. I have general anxiety, panic attacks, phobia, social anxiety, insomnia and depression for 15 years. I have always hid it and never discussed with anyone until this week. It has totally taken over my life, I have moved home to ireland from uk with my son because of this and have had to leave his father behind for the moment, as I am unable to mind my son myself due to change in my behaviour, I now have no patience, am short tempered and am fatigued amongst other things which dont mix with a toddler. I feel so guilty about this. I stopped breastfeeding abrupty due to medication in a&e three weeks ago after 19months and think the hormone crash has greatly contributed to my heightened anxiety and panic attacks at the moment. I have no friends and have become reclusive. I alternate between being very social and then when I have bad episodes I cant maintain any friendships and cut myself off and hide away from world in my bed. I have had to quit jobs in past also. I feel very lonely and isolated. I find it difficult to talk to my family and partner about how I feel, not because they are unsupportive though because they are being very patient with me. I have generally a minimum of two panic attacks daily, usually in the night. This week I have made a number of steps to try gain understanding and try manage my situation. I have met with a psychotherapist who I really liked and will be going to see her twice a week. I have had acupuncture twice, reflexology and reki, I have changed my diet to sugar, caffine free (i dont drink so am alcohol free anyways), low gi and mainly alkaline forming, high magnesium, omega, and I have joined two yoga classes also, I visited my gp and had ecg, and got prescription for lexipro and zimmovane (although it is still in my coat pocket I have not decided whether to go to pharmacy). Even though I have really pushed myself to actively make changes, I still feel awful. I run about 6 hours a week on treadmill also. Sorry for long post!
Just wanted to introduce myself, I've just joined and have never used forum/chatroom before ao am quite nervous. I have general anxiety, panic attacks, phobia, social anxiety, insomnia and depression for 15 years. I have always hid it and never discussed with anyone until this week. It has totally taken over my life, I have moved home to ireland from uk with my son because of this and have had to leave his father behind for the moment, as I am unable to mind my son myself due to change in my behaviour, I now have no patience, am short tempered and am fatigued amongst other things which dont mix with a toddler. I feel so guilty about this. I stopped breastfeeding abrupty due to medication in a&e three weeks ago after 19months and think the hormone crash has greatly contributed to my heightened anxiety and panic attacks at the moment. I have no friends and have become reclusive. I alternate between being very social and then when I have bad episodes I cant maintain any friendships and cut myself off and hide away from world in my bed. I have had to quit jobs in past also. I feel very lonely and isolated. I find it difficult to talk to my family and partner about how I feel, not because they are unsupportive though because they are being very patient with me. I have generally a minimum of two panic attacks daily, usually in the night. This week I have made a number of steps to try gain understanding and try manage my situation. I have met with a psychotherapist who I really liked and will be going to see her twice a week. I have had acupuncture twice, reflexology and reki, I have changed my diet to sugar, caffine free (i dont drink so am alcohol free anyways), low gi and mainly alkaline forming, high magnesium, omega, and I have joined two yoga classes also, I visited my gp and had ecg, and got prescription for lexipro and zimmovane (although it is still in my coat pocket I have not decided whether to go to pharmacy). Even though I have really pushed myself to actively make changes, I still feel awful. I run about 6 hours a week on treadmill also. Sorry for long post!