NE21 worrier
20-01-14, 00:32
Hey folks,
Really beating myself up tonight - feel a complete idiot as I've just made a really crappy mistake in applying for an extension to my contract.
The application, through an online portal, basically came down to me writing competency statements proving I can do the job. There are three different categories and I had a decent enough statement for each one written out in a Microsoft Word document.
The problem arises from the fact that I have mistakenly mixed up two of the statements when copy and pasting them across so that they obviously now do not make sense in meeting the requirements of each competency.
The online portal does not allow for amendments or resubmitted applications. In fairness, it does say to check it before hitting Submit but I was tired and getting stressed out by it, and just wanted it out of the way. I know then that there is nothing at all I can do about it but this just makes the whole thing more frustrating as it really was a lot more important than my lack of care suggests.
There is a saving grace in that I did make two further identical applications through the same system with all the information in the correct places - but these were to other venues with fewer open places.
Nevertheless, I would say I have a love-hate relationship with my job and how it affects my anxiety issues - this is because I CAN do it (and this ultimately gives me confidence) but I feel as if I am constantly having to prove to myself that I can do it. Also being on the phones constantly - I am a customer service advisor for a govt department - can be stressful in itself.
Perhaps if I have truly messed up my application, it is simply a matter of fate suggesting I should do something else. But then the anxieties come flooding back as I don't know what to do exactly. I did journalism as a degree and enjoy writing but do not think I could handle the pressure of being a local newspaper reporter.
I'm 30, still living at home due to my insecure employment status and associated anxiety. And even though I can now cope with panic much more easily (I understand the theory behind adrenaline etc.), I'm still really scared in a general sense about the future. Troubling times.
Peter :sad:
Really beating myself up tonight - feel a complete idiot as I've just made a really crappy mistake in applying for an extension to my contract.
The application, through an online portal, basically came down to me writing competency statements proving I can do the job. There are three different categories and I had a decent enough statement for each one written out in a Microsoft Word document.
The problem arises from the fact that I have mistakenly mixed up two of the statements when copy and pasting them across so that they obviously now do not make sense in meeting the requirements of each competency.
The online portal does not allow for amendments or resubmitted applications. In fairness, it does say to check it before hitting Submit but I was tired and getting stressed out by it, and just wanted it out of the way. I know then that there is nothing at all I can do about it but this just makes the whole thing more frustrating as it really was a lot more important than my lack of care suggests.
There is a saving grace in that I did make two further identical applications through the same system with all the information in the correct places - but these were to other venues with fewer open places.
Nevertheless, I would say I have a love-hate relationship with my job and how it affects my anxiety issues - this is because I CAN do it (and this ultimately gives me confidence) but I feel as if I am constantly having to prove to myself that I can do it. Also being on the phones constantly - I am a customer service advisor for a govt department - can be stressful in itself.
Perhaps if I have truly messed up my application, it is simply a matter of fate suggesting I should do something else. But then the anxieties come flooding back as I don't know what to do exactly. I did journalism as a degree and enjoy writing but do not think I could handle the pressure of being a local newspaper reporter.
I'm 30, still living at home due to my insecure employment status and associated anxiety. And even though I can now cope with panic much more easily (I understand the theory behind adrenaline etc.), I'm still really scared in a general sense about the future. Troubling times.
Peter :sad: