purplebear
17-11-06, 04:27
This is my first time here! I am up late and I can't sleep b/c I am freaking out! I have what I now just realized is health anxiety. (so i think) During the last year or two I have convinced myself that I have had HIV and Cancer. Which of course I don't. I now have had a headached for two weeks now and I "know" that I have a brain tumor. Most likely somthing that can't be cured and I will most likely die. I am now scared out of my mind and think I am crazy. I was laying in bed crying and was afriad to sleep, curled up in a ball, trying to take deep breaths. What happens if I don't wake up. GREAT that made it even harder to try. I understand that it is all in my head and try so hard to relax myself and talk myself out of these crazy thoughts! What is wrong with me? I want to go to the doctors, but I am aftaid that she will think that I am "crazy." Or say your fine and thats that. What do people do when this happens? I am scared and feel so alone. My husband is trying to be supportive telling me your fine...but I convince myself otherwise!!!!!!![V]
Christina :-)
Christina :-)