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22-01-14, 13:20
Well Im here mainly for reassurance (typical anxiety trait eh)
Reassurance that what I'm experiencing isn't that rare. That my ocd and my anxiety are felt by others, that I'm not going out of my mind and losing sanity and that it isn't something worse.
I've ALWAYS been anxious, even as a child. Had a pretty standard childhood but looking back I can see my father is a highly anxious person and my mother is quite cold, I seem to have picked up the anxiety and gone opposite to cold, I seem to feel other peoples feelings along with them, almost like I'm too in tune. Maybe I'm just a busy body haha who knows. Anyhow I'm hoping to not spend too much time here, but here has to be better than googling things, worrying about things that aren't real or obsessing over the past and the future.
I check EVERYTHING. I obsess over things that have happened and try to work out why it happened or read into things that aren't there. Worry I said or did the wrong thing, get very paranoid over stuff. Major health worries and contamination worries. Pretty sure I had untreated PND after the birth of my child 9 years ago, in fact I'm convinced.
I don't self medicate, I'm not much of a drinker, I smoke socially and certainly don't do drugs.
I think I've done this to myself. I think I've trained or re wired my brain to behave this way. I used to get reassurance from checking or obsessing and now I don't, I get more anxiety as my thoughts snowball. Not sure this has made any sense so I'm gonna leave it for now. Too much to say and I'm not sure what order to lay it out x
Reassurance that what I'm experiencing isn't that rare. That my ocd and my anxiety are felt by others, that I'm not going out of my mind and losing sanity and that it isn't something worse.
I've ALWAYS been anxious, even as a child. Had a pretty standard childhood but looking back I can see my father is a highly anxious person and my mother is quite cold, I seem to have picked up the anxiety and gone opposite to cold, I seem to feel other peoples feelings along with them, almost like I'm too in tune. Maybe I'm just a busy body haha who knows. Anyhow I'm hoping to not spend too much time here, but here has to be better than googling things, worrying about things that aren't real or obsessing over the past and the future.
I check EVERYTHING. I obsess over things that have happened and try to work out why it happened or read into things that aren't there. Worry I said or did the wrong thing, get very paranoid over stuff. Major health worries and contamination worries. Pretty sure I had untreated PND after the birth of my child 9 years ago, in fact I'm convinced.
I don't self medicate, I'm not much of a drinker, I smoke socially and certainly don't do drugs.
I think I've done this to myself. I think I've trained or re wired my brain to behave this way. I used to get reassurance from checking or obsessing and now I don't, I get more anxiety as my thoughts snowball. Not sure this has made any sense so I'm gonna leave it for now. Too much to say and I'm not sure what order to lay it out x