OntheVerge
23-01-14, 16:11
I'm really nervous.
Today I'm going in for my final hiv test...
I've been praying and crying a lot lately. My health anxiety eats me alive, I've convinced myself that I already know the answer I am going to be given...
I'm just afraid of what I'll do to myself when I hear it.
I'm very young, never been in a relationship (stayed a virgin bc I was afraid of ending up with something like this but managed to still fall short), I feel like I ruined my life based off of one decision & I wish I had protected myself a lot more and seen potential consequence.
I guess I just wanted to thank everyone who was kind enough to message me and offer me kind words at a time like this.
The few years I've spent on this planet I hope that I was impactful enough in at least one person's life. I hope I've taught at least one person to be smarter about their health and not to trust everyone who comes into their life.
I never thought I'd go out like this, I had so many dreams and aspirations inside of me but soon it will all be over.
Thanks everyone, stay healthy and blessed.
Today I'm going in for my final hiv test...
I've been praying and crying a lot lately. My health anxiety eats me alive, I've convinced myself that I already know the answer I am going to be given...
I'm just afraid of what I'll do to myself when I hear it.
I'm very young, never been in a relationship (stayed a virgin bc I was afraid of ending up with something like this but managed to still fall short), I feel like I ruined my life based off of one decision & I wish I had protected myself a lot more and seen potential consequence.
I guess I just wanted to thank everyone who was kind enough to message me and offer me kind words at a time like this.
The few years I've spent on this planet I hope that I was impactful enough in at least one person's life. I hope I've taught at least one person to be smarter about their health and not to trust everyone who comes into their life.
I never thought I'd go out like this, I had so many dreams and aspirations inside of me but soon it will all be over.
Thanks everyone, stay healthy and blessed.