scrumking
30-01-14, 17:46
So I have had four good days not great but not panic stricken and worrying about sudden death like was a daily thing up intolerant four days ago.
Then came 6:10 this morning my alarm clock went off and the minute I sat up my panic came back full force. The impending doom, sudden death, questioning in my head if the heart test I have had are accurate enough, so I did what I have been doing every morning I started with PMR and guided relaxation which have been working like a charm and nothing had helped.
It is now 9:45 and I am still dreading what will happen to me today heart attack, stroke, cardiac arrest all of my worst fears.
I feel like I have failed, like I have taken ten steps forward just to take 20 more back
Then came 6:10 this morning my alarm clock went off and the minute I sat up my panic came back full force. The impending doom, sudden death, questioning in my head if the heart test I have had are accurate enough, so I did what I have been doing every morning I started with PMR and guided relaxation which have been working like a charm and nothing had helped.
It is now 9:45 and I am still dreading what will happen to me today heart attack, stroke, cardiac arrest all of my worst fears.
I feel like I have failed, like I have taken ten steps forward just to take 20 more back