cloudbusting
02-02-14, 20:01
I'd like to run something past you all who are recovering or have this under control now.
Bit of background - I sing in a band and last night was our first gig ina couple of months and our first one since my panics have been particularly bad. As you can imagine, I was both looking forward to and dreading this in equal measure.
The gig was a long way from home and I drove myself there alternating between the anxious feelings and feeling OK. Anyway, the gig went great, I had a bit of a panicky moment halfway through but it quickly passed. Got home in the early hours.
Got up (too) early, did some chores, walked the dog and then went back to bed for an hour. I was extremely tired and a bit hungry. Then I felt 'it' start. I was about to fight it when I just thought, hang on, you know this feeling, let it come and let it pass. I swear, within a few seconds it just vanished. Weird.
Rest of the day has been ok, just now though it was time for the Sunday routine - bathing my daughter, getting stuff ready for school, thinking of all the things I need to sort out this week ... felt it rising up again. I just stopped and thought the same 'oh come on and hurry up. Do your worst, you make me feel rotten for a while then you go away so just hurry up !' And it stopped again !
Am I actually doing this ? Have I finally started to crack how you neutralise this thing ? I read Claire Weekes and I have been reading about this technique on a few websites. Do you think I am managing to stop them, myself ? It feels weird that they are not manifesting !!!
Lisa x
Bit of background - I sing in a band and last night was our first gig ina couple of months and our first one since my panics have been particularly bad. As you can imagine, I was both looking forward to and dreading this in equal measure.
The gig was a long way from home and I drove myself there alternating between the anxious feelings and feeling OK. Anyway, the gig went great, I had a bit of a panicky moment halfway through but it quickly passed. Got home in the early hours.
Got up (too) early, did some chores, walked the dog and then went back to bed for an hour. I was extremely tired and a bit hungry. Then I felt 'it' start. I was about to fight it when I just thought, hang on, you know this feeling, let it come and let it pass. I swear, within a few seconds it just vanished. Weird.
Rest of the day has been ok, just now though it was time for the Sunday routine - bathing my daughter, getting stuff ready for school, thinking of all the things I need to sort out this week ... felt it rising up again. I just stopped and thought the same 'oh come on and hurry up. Do your worst, you make me feel rotten for a while then you go away so just hurry up !' And it stopped again !
Am I actually doing this ? Have I finally started to crack how you neutralise this thing ? I read Claire Weekes and I have been reading about this technique on a few websites. Do you think I am managing to stop them, myself ? It feels weird that they are not manifesting !!!
Lisa x