TheManWithNoName
04-02-14, 11:04
Been pretty bad with anxiety in the past, I have just got myself into a comfortable state of mind, mostly down to exercise and filling my days the best I could. I went working in a voluntary position, I really got my head down and applied myself to make a good impression and they wanted me to apply for a job. In the work place is the lady who is the fiancé of a friend that really helped me when I wasn't feeling well, I am very thankful of the help that I received from him. I haven't been to their house much the past few months as I have been seeking full time employment and when I have been round I felt like I was intruding, as they have a new-born child and I felt she was annoyed of my being there just catching up with her fiancé.
I didn't plan to work In her department, it was just happen chance as I was asked to go by the job centre, to get some experience. She only works in the office 2 days a week currently. Yesterday I went round to my friends to catch up and to say I got a job at his fiancés office as I thought it was the right thing to do as when I went working voluntary I didn't know I was working where she did, so I didn't tell them. Today I get a text message from her, saying that she knows I am going to working fulltime in her department and that she will be civil with me, but that she doesn't want me near her family again. I would do anything for them, all it took was a phone call and I would rush round. I'm a quiet person, I don't like too much fuss and like to help people.
It's took me a few years to accept and control my worries and anxiety, I'm seriously considering not taking this job I put my whole heart into getting. It's seems like I can't have anything good in life, I have been over the moon this weekend that I can finally move on.
I didn't plan to work In her department, it was just happen chance as I was asked to go by the job centre, to get some experience. She only works in the office 2 days a week currently. Yesterday I went round to my friends to catch up and to say I got a job at his fiancés office as I thought it was the right thing to do as when I went working voluntary I didn't know I was working where she did, so I didn't tell them. Today I get a text message from her, saying that she knows I am going to working fulltime in her department and that she will be civil with me, but that she doesn't want me near her family again. I would do anything for them, all it took was a phone call and I would rush round. I'm a quiet person, I don't like too much fuss and like to help people.
It's took me a few years to accept and control my worries and anxiety, I'm seriously considering not taking this job I put my whole heart into getting. It's seems like I can't have anything good in life, I have been over the moon this weekend that I can finally move on.