jasmine95
16-02-14, 08:49
I know it may sound super silly, because when I say it out loud it sounds unbelievable but its true. I'm an 18 year old female in college, and I am afraid of having a heart attack. I'm not quite sure what brought on this fear, in high school I never had this problem. I didn't really start having 'anxiety' until towards the middle of my senior year. I became ill with bronchitis and I had to stay in the hospital for around 15 hours, why I stayed so long is because when I was discharged, I fainted. Apparently the breathing machine they had me use that's supposed to open up your lungs, makes you very jittery and lightheaded.
So I was back in the hospital for another few hours and they were monitoring my heart. I got into college and thats when the anxiety REALLY started. All the stress from my friends, boyfriend, and college itself was getting to me. I took a Zumba class and sometimes I wasn't able to enjoy that because I would start getting chest pains and then I'd think I was gonna have a heart attack. Finally I went to the doctor they checked my heart, and they diagnosed me with a heart murmur. As you can imagine this only intensified my fear even though heart murmurs are pretty much harmless. The doctor orded me to have a ecg done, and they wanted them to comment on my valves.
So I had the ecg, and the whole time the tech kept saying "you have a beautiful heart". Anyway I called my doctor back to get my results but she wasn't answering and then when she did call back, I didn't answer, and legally they can't give you your results over a voice message. So I put it off because I was half scared and then I recently called back and I am waiting for the doctor to call me back. My boyfriend has been so supportive through all this, he's pretty much the only person who knows about this fear that I have, he seems to think that I'm overreacting and its my anxiety thats playing with my head.
Anyway, I'm just tired of living in fear, any small symptom I get I immediately think of having a heart attack and it scares the crap out of me. I'm pretty healthy, I'm 5'3", I weigh 121 lbs and I'm taking weight training. I just wanna be normal again.
So I was back in the hospital for another few hours and they were monitoring my heart. I got into college and thats when the anxiety REALLY started. All the stress from my friends, boyfriend, and college itself was getting to me. I took a Zumba class and sometimes I wasn't able to enjoy that because I would start getting chest pains and then I'd think I was gonna have a heart attack. Finally I went to the doctor they checked my heart, and they diagnosed me with a heart murmur. As you can imagine this only intensified my fear even though heart murmurs are pretty much harmless. The doctor orded me to have a ecg done, and they wanted them to comment on my valves.
So I had the ecg, and the whole time the tech kept saying "you have a beautiful heart". Anyway I called my doctor back to get my results but she wasn't answering and then when she did call back, I didn't answer, and legally they can't give you your results over a voice message. So I put it off because I was half scared and then I recently called back and I am waiting for the doctor to call me back. My boyfriend has been so supportive through all this, he's pretty much the only person who knows about this fear that I have, he seems to think that I'm overreacting and its my anxiety thats playing with my head.
Anyway, I'm just tired of living in fear, any small symptom I get I immediately think of having a heart attack and it scares the crap out of me. I'm pretty healthy, I'm 5'3", I weigh 121 lbs and I'm taking weight training. I just wanna be normal again.