Jem27
23-11-06, 09:07
I saw my GP yesterday to get the forms for the hiv and syhilis test. I am having it done monday and he said the results will take about a week, how on earth am I going to wait a week?[V] I am dreading ringing for the result, esp as its a receptionist I will be asking for the result. Do you think I should make an appointment and get the results from him? im too scared to ring up plus I don't want them knowing what im ringing for as I have to face these women, they live in my area.
The dr said he had to give me a degree of counselling but said in my case as the sex was only once, it didn't finish (sorry tmi) and we do not know if this man has hiv or not its just me panicking then he said it will be 'ultimatly negative' I said 'I hope so' and he replied with 'it will be honestly, do not lose any sleep over this now'
I am so scared today because in the last few weeks ive not been feeling too good health wise and of course after reading about early hiv symptoms appearing in the first 2-6 weeks after infection im worrying I have some of them. Its 6 weeks tomorrow and in the last 2 weeks ive had very achy legs esp in the morning and evenings, im worn out, I feel sick and I had that virus which dr thought was my sinuses but obviously wasn't as the ct scan showed it was normal. Today though ive woken up with a raised gland in my neck and one on the back of my head, which is quite sore and about pea size. Ive never had one up there before. My throat feels abit raw like im going to get a cough or sore throat. I have 3 children all ill with a bad cold and cough, my 4 yr old son also has an ear infection so why can't I just think ive caught something from them and thats why my glands are up abit???:(
I was stupid to google hiv and read that fluey symptoms, sore throats, raised glands, aching limbs etc... are early signs because now I have some of them im absolutly petrified, this morning ive had to hold the tears back and I am absolutly drained, my children are ill and my baby is awake alot with her cold and she has had a temp for 3 nights after her mmr last week. In the last month id say a good night is 4 hours sleep and thats abit broken!! This week I had 90 mins on monday night, 4 hours tuesday night and 3 hours last night. I ache all over esp my legs, could tiredness really make my legs ache so much?
I am so upset and scared, also angry at myself for being so friggin stupid and getting myself in this mess, ive had 6 weeks from hell and now im imagining having hiv, dying and not seeing my children grow up. I don't know how I will cope with it if I do have it:( My dr has told me the risk is 1% and thats if the person has HIV to start with, he said its very difficult to catch and esp in my case as the sex didn't finish so less fluids or something. He also gives blood every 4 mths but how do I know he hasnt contracted it since. All my swabs were normal so I should be reassured he is clean but im frightened.
Sorry to post again, I have noone to turn to right now about this.
The dr said he had to give me a degree of counselling but said in my case as the sex was only once, it didn't finish (sorry tmi) and we do not know if this man has hiv or not its just me panicking then he said it will be 'ultimatly negative' I said 'I hope so' and he replied with 'it will be honestly, do not lose any sleep over this now'
I am so scared today because in the last few weeks ive not been feeling too good health wise and of course after reading about early hiv symptoms appearing in the first 2-6 weeks after infection im worrying I have some of them. Its 6 weeks tomorrow and in the last 2 weeks ive had very achy legs esp in the morning and evenings, im worn out, I feel sick and I had that virus which dr thought was my sinuses but obviously wasn't as the ct scan showed it was normal. Today though ive woken up with a raised gland in my neck and one on the back of my head, which is quite sore and about pea size. Ive never had one up there before. My throat feels abit raw like im going to get a cough or sore throat. I have 3 children all ill with a bad cold and cough, my 4 yr old son also has an ear infection so why can't I just think ive caught something from them and thats why my glands are up abit???:(
I was stupid to google hiv and read that fluey symptoms, sore throats, raised glands, aching limbs etc... are early signs because now I have some of them im absolutly petrified, this morning ive had to hold the tears back and I am absolutly drained, my children are ill and my baby is awake alot with her cold and she has had a temp for 3 nights after her mmr last week. In the last month id say a good night is 4 hours sleep and thats abit broken!! This week I had 90 mins on monday night, 4 hours tuesday night and 3 hours last night. I ache all over esp my legs, could tiredness really make my legs ache so much?
I am so upset and scared, also angry at myself for being so friggin stupid and getting myself in this mess, ive had 6 weeks from hell and now im imagining having hiv, dying and not seeing my children grow up. I don't know how I will cope with it if I do have it:( My dr has told me the risk is 1% and thats if the person has HIV to start with, he said its very difficult to catch and esp in my case as the sex didn't finish so less fluids or something. He also gives blood every 4 mths but how do I know he hasnt contracted it since. All my swabs were normal so I should be reassured he is clean but im frightened.
Sorry to post again, I have noone to turn to right now about this.