hangingbasket
18-02-14, 21:06
It is one thing after another. How can this be JUST anxiety???
I should start by saying that Im trying my best!!! I have done a group therapy cbt and an online course. I practice adjusting my faulty thinking and am aware of how my thoughts become feelings become actions etc. I practice progressive muscle relaxation. I make time to do fun, distracting things. I've cut out caffiene (and never drink alcohol) I've read health anxiety books and make sure I exercise every day. So what am I doing wrong? Why cant I recover? Why am I still suffering supposed physical anxiety symptoms even when not feeling particularly anxious?
My most recent worry is night sweats. Which seem to be getting worse although I'm still not sure they classify as 'drenching'. Now, you could blame my citalopram for this, it's very common with ssri meds. But I've only had it the last maybe 2 months. I've been on citalopram for 9 months. Obviously I'm thinking lymphoma, but I'm not aware of any swollen nodes (I've checked, but maybe not properly. I cant find any lumps) can lymphoma present itself with ONLY night sweats???
Until just over a week ago I was convinced I had bone cancer. A tumour in my ribs. I've been having right sided rib pain for MONTHS. Doctor thought it was muscular but eventually sent me for a chest xray which came back completely normal and bloods which came back fine apart from slightly high calcium (doctor has said this is likely due to vitamin tablets and need to retake test in a fortnight).
Before that I've been convinced I had bowel cancer, UC, chrons, myeloma, pancreatic cancer, brain tumour, hyperparathyroidism, cervical cancer and many others.
WHY CANT I BEAT HA LIKE EVERYONE ELSE SEEMS TO????
Im really trying. I'm doing a lot of things right so where am I going wrong???
It's leaving me with no other option than to think maybe there is something physically wrong because I'm just not getting better.
These night sweats... what's that all about???? It cant be the citalopram because I've been on them 9months and only started with the night sweats 2 months ago. If it's lymphoma.. would something have shown up in my bloods (white blood cells were normal?) or on my chest xray?? I've read a lot of lymphoma cases causing suspicious chest xray. Mine was fine? So what the hell is causing the night sweats and rib pain???
I feel so disappointed in myself for not getting better.
I should start by saying that Im trying my best!!! I have done a group therapy cbt and an online course. I practice adjusting my faulty thinking and am aware of how my thoughts become feelings become actions etc. I practice progressive muscle relaxation. I make time to do fun, distracting things. I've cut out caffiene (and never drink alcohol) I've read health anxiety books and make sure I exercise every day. So what am I doing wrong? Why cant I recover? Why am I still suffering supposed physical anxiety symptoms even when not feeling particularly anxious?
My most recent worry is night sweats. Which seem to be getting worse although I'm still not sure they classify as 'drenching'. Now, you could blame my citalopram for this, it's very common with ssri meds. But I've only had it the last maybe 2 months. I've been on citalopram for 9 months. Obviously I'm thinking lymphoma, but I'm not aware of any swollen nodes (I've checked, but maybe not properly. I cant find any lumps) can lymphoma present itself with ONLY night sweats???
Until just over a week ago I was convinced I had bone cancer. A tumour in my ribs. I've been having right sided rib pain for MONTHS. Doctor thought it was muscular but eventually sent me for a chest xray which came back completely normal and bloods which came back fine apart from slightly high calcium (doctor has said this is likely due to vitamin tablets and need to retake test in a fortnight).
Before that I've been convinced I had bowel cancer, UC, chrons, myeloma, pancreatic cancer, brain tumour, hyperparathyroidism, cervical cancer and many others.
WHY CANT I BEAT HA LIKE EVERYONE ELSE SEEMS TO????
Im really trying. I'm doing a lot of things right so where am I going wrong???
It's leaving me with no other option than to think maybe there is something physically wrong because I'm just not getting better.
These night sweats... what's that all about???? It cant be the citalopram because I've been on them 9months and only started with the night sweats 2 months ago. If it's lymphoma.. would something have shown up in my bloods (white blood cells were normal?) or on my chest xray?? I've read a lot of lymphoma cases causing suspicious chest xray. Mine was fine? So what the hell is causing the night sweats and rib pain???
I feel so disappointed in myself for not getting better.