Dissolved girl
20-02-14, 19:30
Hi again
I have posted a few times recently.
I have just had a panic attack after waking.
I was signed off work recently for a week as my anxiety seemed
to have returned. I have now been signed off again after panicking at work at lunch time. The doctor has switched me from 20mg fluoxetine to 100mg zoloft. He gave this to me last time i was signed off but i decided not to switch as i was too scared of the side effects.
Anyway i took my first tablet yesterday, i do feel zombified today and i felt like my vision is off. Plus whenever i stood up i felt dizzy. No panic until tonight. I keep getting a taste in the back of my throat. I assume it might be from tonsil stones which i get occasionally. Anyway every time i taste this taste i start to panic.
I have been trying my best to remain positive but what if i can never beat this? What if i forever panic about this taste? I couldn't live any more. I am so scared. The way i see it is this taste will always be there. I am trying my best to be positive and make myself think that i could cope with it before and it's only now i see it as a 'problem'. I just have very dark thoughts tonight. I keep thinking i will have to kill myself if i cannot get past this.
The doc's think my prozac effects must have worn off hence the sudden anxiety. I don't even mind the panic symptoms. It's the thoughts that come with it. That feeling of dread in the pit of your stomach like all is lost. I just want to burst into tears and i do not want to become phobic of my own throat, my own body. How could anyone live being phobic of something they cannot do anything about?
Please, please help me
I have posted a few times recently.
I have just had a panic attack after waking.
I was signed off work recently for a week as my anxiety seemed
to have returned. I have now been signed off again after panicking at work at lunch time. The doctor has switched me from 20mg fluoxetine to 100mg zoloft. He gave this to me last time i was signed off but i decided not to switch as i was too scared of the side effects.
Anyway i took my first tablet yesterday, i do feel zombified today and i felt like my vision is off. Plus whenever i stood up i felt dizzy. No panic until tonight. I keep getting a taste in the back of my throat. I assume it might be from tonsil stones which i get occasionally. Anyway every time i taste this taste i start to panic.
I have been trying my best to remain positive but what if i can never beat this? What if i forever panic about this taste? I couldn't live any more. I am so scared. The way i see it is this taste will always be there. I am trying my best to be positive and make myself think that i could cope with it before and it's only now i see it as a 'problem'. I just have very dark thoughts tonight. I keep thinking i will have to kill myself if i cannot get past this.
The doc's think my prozac effects must have worn off hence the sudden anxiety. I don't even mind the panic symptoms. It's the thoughts that come with it. That feeling of dread in the pit of your stomach like all is lost. I just want to burst into tears and i do not want to become phobic of my own throat, my own body. How could anyone live being phobic of something they cannot do anything about?
Please, please help me