NotCool
22-02-14, 00:52
Alright, so i've well established and accepted the fact that I obviously suffer from some multiple forms of anxiety - health, social, future, anxiety, whatever. All until today, I thought it's pretty manageable, and i've been feeling relatively decent for the last few days - I don't generally worry about health so much anymore, and have kept positive mentality for the most part. Until today.
I've been eating normal lunch with a part of my family (father, brother and his girl, and fathers girlfriend), and it was nice. After the main course, it was time for desert - some rice bisquit and cherry juice with cherries. So i'm eating, and then I notice that some of the cherries went rotten. I guess looking back, that was the trigger, because out of the blue, I started experiencing this random weird ANGER towards fathers (female) friend, literally intrusive anger in my mind, not rage per se, but pretty intense feelings, that i haven't experienced before, since i'm usually calm and collective (when i'm not anxious, lol). At the exact same time, I started getting freaked out over my anger feelings, which lead to a panic attack - so i excused myself, and went to the bathroom where i stayed for a bit. Then i came back, and I still felt the pretty strong remnants of those feelings. My dad's girlfriend is a great positive lady, but i don't know why, but i found her ANNOYING, as i could almost angrily snap at her, or something. I sat in the room for a while, quiet, caught inside my head, and then went home, and while driving, I kept getting these random anger feelings towards people i saw - a car supposedly driving too slow, a driver not using a winker, trivial, bizzare stuff like that.
Please, can ANYONE relate? I'm sorry for the long read, but I need to know WTF is this intrusive anger? Is that a common symptom of anxiety? Could it be something else? I would appreciate any insights, opinions and experiences from you guys.
I could mention also that today I only had 3 and a half hours of sleep, since I had to get up early and couldn't sleep before, but I lacked sleep many times before, and these feelings and random anger was totally new.
I've been eating normal lunch with a part of my family (father, brother and his girl, and fathers girlfriend), and it was nice. After the main course, it was time for desert - some rice bisquit and cherry juice with cherries. So i'm eating, and then I notice that some of the cherries went rotten. I guess looking back, that was the trigger, because out of the blue, I started experiencing this random weird ANGER towards fathers (female) friend, literally intrusive anger in my mind, not rage per se, but pretty intense feelings, that i haven't experienced before, since i'm usually calm and collective (when i'm not anxious, lol). At the exact same time, I started getting freaked out over my anger feelings, which lead to a panic attack - so i excused myself, and went to the bathroom where i stayed for a bit. Then i came back, and I still felt the pretty strong remnants of those feelings. My dad's girlfriend is a great positive lady, but i don't know why, but i found her ANNOYING, as i could almost angrily snap at her, or something. I sat in the room for a while, quiet, caught inside my head, and then went home, and while driving, I kept getting these random anger feelings towards people i saw - a car supposedly driving too slow, a driver not using a winker, trivial, bizzare stuff like that.
Please, can ANYONE relate? I'm sorry for the long read, but I need to know WTF is this intrusive anger? Is that a common symptom of anxiety? Could it be something else? I would appreciate any insights, opinions and experiences from you guys.
I could mention also that today I only had 3 and a half hours of sleep, since I had to get up early and couldn't sleep before, but I lacked sleep many times before, and these feelings and random anger was totally new.