Madsmom
23-02-14, 14:45
Ok, so yesterday I found this site and felt really good and ok with the fact that I could have health anxiety. Amazingly, I had very few symptoms yesterday. I am not foolish into thinking that I was amazing cured from all of this in one day, but I am back to my old thoughts today.
I woke up and was feeling pretty good, I do have a cold and am not worried about it like I usually am because my husband also has the same cold. So it's reassuring that we both couldn't possibly have a terrible life threatening "cold" at the same time! haha
BUT and that's a big BUT, horrible symptoms started about 30 minutes ago. Feel like my throat is swelling and chest is crushing, shoulders and neck hurt and I am thinking to myself HOW could this be anxiety? I mean really I have been thinking of NOTHING. I have spent my morning so far drinking coffee, catching up on Facebook, and laughing at funny videos, posts and pictures. Not a worry in the world! So here I am now frantic and worried again that the doctors and EVERYONE is completely wrong about me. There is SOMETHING wrong with me and I am going to die. My husband, mother and daughter are going to be standing at my funeral telling everyone how "all the doctors told her it was anxiety and we believed it too. I wish we would have listened!" It's going to be too late! I am so pissed right now. For feeling this way, for hurting, for thinking this way. WHY? Why do I have to be this way? :weep:
I woke up and was feeling pretty good, I do have a cold and am not worried about it like I usually am because my husband also has the same cold. So it's reassuring that we both couldn't possibly have a terrible life threatening "cold" at the same time! haha
BUT and that's a big BUT, horrible symptoms started about 30 minutes ago. Feel like my throat is swelling and chest is crushing, shoulders and neck hurt and I am thinking to myself HOW could this be anxiety? I mean really I have been thinking of NOTHING. I have spent my morning so far drinking coffee, catching up on Facebook, and laughing at funny videos, posts and pictures. Not a worry in the world! So here I am now frantic and worried again that the doctors and EVERYONE is completely wrong about me. There is SOMETHING wrong with me and I am going to die. My husband, mother and daughter are going to be standing at my funeral telling everyone how "all the doctors told her it was anxiety and we believed it too. I wish we would have listened!" It's going to be too late! I am so pissed right now. For feeling this way, for hurting, for thinking this way. WHY? Why do I have to be this way? :weep: