Tanner40
26-02-14, 12:55
Wow, the dragon had not showed his full presence in quite awhile and it looks like he had been saving up strength. Full fledged insomnia last night, not sleeping until 4:30AM. Arms burning, chest burning, occasional flashes of left side chest pain, and tons of nausea. And then dragon there in a new trick. Back rib cage pain, almost like a constant catch in my ribs.
The dragon made me afraid, yes he did. I trembled in fear like a samall child, who had for gotten her ABC's. It was as if I had forgotten everything that I had learned. I almost went to the ER twice but didn't go. I convinced myself that it was a heart attack and if it wasn't that, then I was sure that it was side effects of the current antibiotic, Bactrim. I've had five out of ten days of the Bactrim and don't want to take anymore.
March is the biggest month for anxiety for me, as every woman on my Mother's side for the last four generations, has died during the month of March. Oh, the Ides of March, and it's personal meaning to me. I generally live in fear every day during the month until March is over.
My partner is getting ready to go to Atlanta for a couple of weeks to take care of her ailing Mother and I will be home alone, taking care of the house, three dogs and two cats, and work. And my Dad is being released from the rehab center today and has an appointment with the oncologist on Friday to discuss chemotherapy.
I am worried and frightened that I have too much on my plate and that I can't handle it. I am worried about the quick twinge still happening in my left chest this morning. Is it my heart? God only knows I have felt like this before and it has been anxiety. But I keep what iffing myself to death. Imfeel like the little boy that cried wolf.
Sorry for the rant. This morning, I don't want to have anxiety. None of us ever do, do we? I have an annual physical tomorrow with an EKG. I guess that's a good thing.
The dragon made me afraid, yes he did. I trembled in fear like a samall child, who had for gotten her ABC's. It was as if I had forgotten everything that I had learned. I almost went to the ER twice but didn't go. I convinced myself that it was a heart attack and if it wasn't that, then I was sure that it was side effects of the current antibiotic, Bactrim. I've had five out of ten days of the Bactrim and don't want to take anymore.
March is the biggest month for anxiety for me, as every woman on my Mother's side for the last four generations, has died during the month of March. Oh, the Ides of March, and it's personal meaning to me. I generally live in fear every day during the month until March is over.
My partner is getting ready to go to Atlanta for a couple of weeks to take care of her ailing Mother and I will be home alone, taking care of the house, three dogs and two cats, and work. And my Dad is being released from the rehab center today and has an appointment with the oncologist on Friday to discuss chemotherapy.
I am worried and frightened that I have too much on my plate and that I can't handle it. I am worried about the quick twinge still happening in my left chest this morning. Is it my heart? God only knows I have felt like this before and it has been anxiety. But I keep what iffing myself to death. Imfeel like the little boy that cried wolf.
Sorry for the rant. This morning, I don't want to have anxiety. None of us ever do, do we? I have an annual physical tomorrow with an EKG. I guess that's a good thing.