dustinburgess
02-03-14, 03:18
I was using drugs at the age of 18-20. Soon, I lost everything. My beautiful girlfriend, my car, my apartment, my job, all in one week. I was demolished. I stopped using drugs and got my life strait thanks to help from my family. All the while dealing with extreme uncomfortable feelings. AT THAT TIME I DIDNT KNOW WHAT ANXIETY WAS, NEVER HEARD ABOUT IT. PROGRESSIVELY, THESE FEELINGS BEGIN TO DEVELOP INTO HORRIBLE FEELINGS OF DOOM AND BEGIN TO TRANSFORM FROM A MENTAL INSTABILITY TO A PHYSICAL AILMENT. I HAD TO GO TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM BECAUSE I THOUGHT I HAD A HEART CONDITION. THEY GAVE ME A XANAX AND MY ANXIETY WENT AWAY INSTANTLY AND NEVER CAME BACK TO THAT EFFECT, EVER AGAIN. UNTIL RECENTLY. NOW I HAVNT HAD PANIC ATTACKS EVER AGAIN LIKE I USED TO BUT JUST ANXIETY AFTER EATING. THIS ALL BEGAN WHEN MY WIFE LEFT TO GO ACROSS THE COUNTRY FOR WORK. I THINK IT COULD BE BECAUSE OF THE SPLIT. ANYWAY I AM RELATING FOOD AND ANXIETY BECAUSE FOR SOME REASON I SUSPECT I MAY HAVE DIABETES. I PROBABLY DONT, HAVNT GOT CHECKED BUT YOU CAN SEE HOW A PHYSICAL ILLNESS CONTRIBUTES TO CREATE ANXIETY THEN ITS HARD TO DIFFERENTIATE BETWEEN AN ACTUAL ILLNESS OR ANXIETY. SO EVERYTIME I EAT I CLOSELY MONITOR MY BODIES REACTION AND I GET ANXIOUS. I HAVE LOST WEIGHT RECENTLY BECAUSE MY WIFE ISNT HERE TO COOK HUGE MEALS, I GO TO THE GYM FOR ABOUT 8 MONTHS CONSISTENTLY AND NOW ALL THE SUDDEN AFTER 10 MINUTES OF WORKING OUT I FEEL WEAK AND UN MOTIVATED. THIS ALL SCARES ME. I THINK WHEN MY WIFE COMES BACK EVERYTHING WILL RETURN TO NORMAL....I HOPE. THATS A LITTLE BIT ABOUT MYSELF. I AM 29 YEARS OLD.