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This heart anxiety is never going to stop I'm tired of it, I'm tired of not being able to wake up normally without thinking I'm about to die of a heart attack or cardiac arrest. I'm tired of spending my whole day keyed up and on edge with the impending doom feeling. I am tired of being scared that today is the day my heart gives out.
I can't do this anymore
You can't give up. Have you tried an antidepressant? I've found them helpful when I'm at my breaking point. It will pass. I know its hard to believe but I will. Feel better :hugs:
Yes I am in a antidepressant no help .
I'm going to die young of a un diagnosed heart condition and I'm so scared to die
Scrum king, you play rugby? I'm just guessing that by your name
kurtis1990
04-03-14, 14:44
I can tottaly relate. My symptoms are quite severe and I fear I'm nearing the end. But no matter how bad I get every doctor I meet is a pompus stuck up idiot and doesn't listen to a word I say. So I've just given up....
I played rugby for 10 years no longer play
If you fear you're nearing the end, why not get up and do something you want to do? Don't hang about waiting for it , live a bit, what's the worst that could happen ?[COLOR="blue"]
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I had an injury that ended my rugby days. And what the worst that could happen? Dying at the age of 31 is what could happens
And the best that could happen.?
Hard to think about the positives right now sorry
I know it's hard but the best that could happen is that you won't die.
Bloody typing is not my strong point but honestly man, just try, what have you got to Lose
I know the pull is to think about the horrible things--that's the disease. And I know you've had a really tough go with the disease.
Does your doctor know that what you're taking isn't working for your anxiety? Please tell him/her. Have you tried CBT, maybe in the online CBT courses available here? Please do.
If I remember, you've been checked out as not having a heart condition. The sad story isn't going to be that you die at 31, it's going to be stopping living for fear long before you die. Please try to find more help to change that story.
I'm sorry you're feeling bad Scrum. Look at it this way. The last two days you were pretty convinced you were going to stop breathing and pass and you're still here proving your fears are unfounded ;)
That's a positive in my book! I hope you continue on the path of seeking help/therapy and healing.
Positive thoughts
cut_out_stars
04-03-14, 16:53
I can totally understand how you're feeling now but you can use the fact you're so tired of feeling like this to your advantage, you just need to move in the right direction! You can feel better again and you will. Sure you don't want to fight it anymore.. Who does? I certainly don't, it's bloody tiring!
You can do this, feel better soon!
dizzydaisy
04-03-14, 21:33
Scrum, everyone here has given you such good advice and and hopefully some comfort. I really cannot add much to help as nearly all my days are spent trying to cope with HA. I dont have the same fears as you but never the less they cause me anxiety and panic. I have accepted that as soon as one health worry goes another, just as silly will replace it. I just try to get through every day as best I can. When my anxiety is starting to get to panic levels I just try to find something to do to distract my mind, doesnt always help. If all else fails have a bloody good cry:blush: somehow that does help to relieve the fear. I wish you well my friend and most of all peace of mind.
Messed up twice trying to type this to you . I understand you Scrumking cos like you I know what I will die from I am 99 percent sure I will die of stomach cancer for ten years now I have,researched symptoms had cameras down blood tests and many many hours of googling case histories and missed diagnosis I am diagnosed with gastritis which could turn into cancer but I am half decided mine will if you knew some of the state's I've been in not eating and severe and unrelenting anxiety who told me it would end up as cancer Me that is who no Dr says it no consultant or specialist juSt me I could get hit by a bus before I ever get that terrible illness I know this deep down but what I want is a Dr who says you will never get cancer and,that can't be done so I ruin a lot of my life,fearing what MAY happen that's a lot of time to waste,on what ifs,and also I'm great,at telling others but no good with myself try to find things,that distract you 31 is very young and there would be signs I know how you feel take care and try to relax God bless what I'm really saying is these are thoughts not realities that we feel we are so sure of take care
I want is a Dr who says you will never get cancer and,that can't be done so I ruin a lot of my life,fearing what MAY happen
This is a profound truth and a common theme. One cannot with any assurance give anyone a guarantee that tragedy won't strike in their lives. $h*t happens. You stand more of a chance being in a car accident than getting cancer or having a heart attack.
Do the things you have control over. Eat right, exercise, DON'T SMOKE (this one pushes my button!). Alcohol is known to cause anxiety sufferers issues so DON'T DRINK! (another hot button). There is help available and you have to work at it to get better. It's no different than what I have to do to remedy my physical issues or recover from some minor depression. I have "scanxiety". It hits me every three months at check up time and causes physical symptoms like many here experience. I'm seeking help for that. There are the things you "can" control. And by doing so, you cut the risk of the very health issues you fear.
Positive thoughts
:yesyes:Fishmanpa I think you are awesome you have been through a crappy time and remained so strong you write some amazing replies on here why am I so good at reasoning for others but not myself
Miss Worry-a-lot
05-03-14, 17:39
Don't give up. Never give up. It's a horrible thing to go through and it's not fair for you to be suffering like this, but you can't give up on yourself. I know it's easier said than done, believe me.
When you feel like this, take a few moments to yourself. Lie down with some relaxing music, close your eyes, and just breathe. You're going to get over the panic one day. It doesn't feel like that now, but you will.
Keep positive. There is always something to smile about.
Scrumking - I get pvcs (palpitations) ebery day, thousands at times. When I was first diagnosed I became so anxious I only left the house when I had to. I spent all day on the sofa, terrified. I sat up at night because I was afraid to sleep. I had panic attacks in shops or new places. I developed a head tremor, which still persists.
That was 10 years ago now. I spent years waiting for a catastrophe that never happened. The same will happen to you if you do not accept that your main problem is anxiety. I don't know what heart issues you have, whether you have been diagnosed with a problem, or if your tests are ok. But I can tell you that you can get through this, because I have. It has been a long haul and I still have times of great anxiety when the palpitations are bad, but I am much better than I was.
You have to accept uncertainty. I wanted the doctors to guarantee that my heart was ok and that I wouldn't drop dead - noone can give you this. Accept that nothing is certain, but that medical tests can give a very good indication of your heart health. Eat healthy, exercise, relax. What you can really work on is the anxiety. I strongly recommend Claire Weekes books - I found them hugely reassuring.
I also found the All Experts Cardiology forum very reassuring for heart info.
The Claire Weekes method is to 'float' through anxiety - don't fight it. Let the panic wash over you. The free Insight timer guided meditation app is helpful too.
I felt that I couldn't do anything about the palpitations, but I could work on the anxiety. It hasn't been easy but I am much better than I was and I look back now and see that I wasted a lot of time worrying about something that was possible, but very unlikely.
Saab. So much of what you said rings true spending ten years waiting,for something that hasn't happened time wasted I know the exact feeling HA has so much to.answer for
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