mumtoone
27-11-06, 08:31
Promises
(01/04/06)
He promised me it all;
A new world, a new life.
Everything I had ever dreamed.
But that’s all it turned out to be.
A dream. A lie. Everything was lies.
No new worlds, no more promises
Of a better life. Just fear.
Fear and confusion.
That was my new life.
Saying one thing. Doing another;
The trademark of a compulsive liar.
Confusion grew stronger every day.
I was never sure what was true;
What was right?
Fear gripped me tighter.
Strangling the Feint voice of reason from within.
Reason; overtaken by confusion.
My soul. Suppressed. Dying.
No escape. There was no escape
Until that night. Full of fear again,
Overwhelming fear. A punch. No pain.
Just panic. Sheer panic. Fleeing from
Him, my brain was resuscitated.
Desperation led me to safety.
I ran and ran and ran.
He lost me; gave up the chase.
I was still confused.
My thoughts, trapped in a maze.
Stuck. Lost in the maze.
He left. I went home.
He had lost control of me.
He has no power over me now.
The maze becomes less complicated
With each passing day.
The prize at the centre;
The real me.
It won’t be long. I am now free
To be whatever I want.
To finally live my dream.
I have survived.
Never to return, he will not win.
The wounds will heal, given time.
Set free, finally.
I will be me.
(01/04/06)
He promised me it all;
A new world, a new life.
Everything I had ever dreamed.
But that’s all it turned out to be.
A dream. A lie. Everything was lies.
No new worlds, no more promises
Of a better life. Just fear.
Fear and confusion.
That was my new life.
Saying one thing. Doing another;
The trademark of a compulsive liar.
Confusion grew stronger every day.
I was never sure what was true;
What was right?
Fear gripped me tighter.
Strangling the Feint voice of reason from within.
Reason; overtaken by confusion.
My soul. Suppressed. Dying.
No escape. There was no escape
Until that night. Full of fear again,
Overwhelming fear. A punch. No pain.
Just panic. Sheer panic. Fleeing from
Him, my brain was resuscitated.
Desperation led me to safety.
I ran and ran and ran.
He lost me; gave up the chase.
I was still confused.
My thoughts, trapped in a maze.
Stuck. Lost in the maze.
He left. I went home.
He had lost control of me.
He has no power over me now.
The maze becomes less complicated
With each passing day.
The prize at the centre;
The real me.
It won’t be long. I am now free
To be whatever I want.
To finally live my dream.
I have survived.
Never to return, he will not win.
The wounds will heal, given time.
Set free, finally.
I will be me.